“Possibly not,” replied Lucilla, the shadow of an ironical smile playing
about her lips. “But—we can be quite frank—I don’t see how you could
have told me.”
“Of course I couldn’t,” he admitted. “But loving you as I did, I ought
not to have come. It was not the part of an honourable man.”
His elbow on the arm of the cane chair and his chin on his hand he
looked with haggard questioning into her eyes. She held his glance for a
brief moment, then looked down at her blue-veined hands.
“You see,” he said, “you don’t deny it. That’s why I call myself an
adventurer.”
Her eyes still downcast, she said: “You have no reason in the world to
reproach yourself. As soon as you could, with decency, tell me that you
loved me, you did. And you made it clear to me long before you told me.
And I don’t think,” she added in a low voice, “that I showed much
indignation.”
“Why didn’t you?” he asked.
She intertwined her fingers nervously. “Sometimes a woman feels it good
to be loved. And I’ve felt it good—and wonderful—all the time.
Once—there was a man, years ago; but he’s dead. Since then other men
have come along and I’ve turned them down as gently as I could. But no
one has done the mad thing that you have done for my sake. And no one
has been so simple and loyal—and strong. You are different. I have had
the sense of being loved by a man pure and unstained. God knows you are
without blame.”
“Then, my dear,” said he, bending his head vainly so as to catch her
face otherwise than in profile and to meet the eyes hidden beneath the
adorable brown lashes, “what is to happen between us two?”
For answer, she made a little despairing gesture.
“If I had the right of an honest man seeking a woman in marriage,” he
said, “I would take matters into my own hand. I would follow you all
over the world until I won you somehow or the other.”
She turned on him in a flash of passion.
“If you say such things, you will make me marry you out of humiliation
and remorse.”
“God forbid I should do that,” said Martin.
She averted her head again. There was a span of silence. At the extreme
end of the long deserted verandah, beneath the sun-baked awning, with
only the occasional clatter of a carriage or the whirr of a motor
breaking the stillness of this drowsy embankment of the Nile, they might
have been miles away in the desert solitude under the palm-tree of
Fortinbras’s dream.