Adrift on the Amazon — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Adrift on the Amazon
John Stuart Mill · en
“Very well. So far as this proposition is concerned you shall have your
own way. But you cannot blame me for being concerned about your
welfare.”
“Of course not. But at the same time, please don’t forget that I am not
a baby. I can take care of myself.”
His father bit his lip. His eyes narrowed as he regarded his son. And in
that instant an idea came to him.
“Just as you say,” he said quietly. “It will be your chance to show me
just what you can do. The _Morales_ sails a week from today and I shall
make a reservation for you. In the meantime, I shall send other cables;
you may go regardless of whether there are answers or not. Is that
satisfactory?”
“It’s splendid. I won’t sleep a wink until then.”
On the eve of the great day the little group around the dinner table was
very silent.
“Rice has answered at last,” Mr. Jones said suddenly.
“What did he say?” asked David, eagerly.
“Never mind what he said. You are determined to go, anyway, so it makes
no difference.”
“But does he want me to come?” David persisted.
“Suppose he does?”
“I should go, of course.”
“And if he does not?”
“I should go anyway. I am all ready, my ticket is bought and I couldn’t
think of backing out. I should never hear the last of it.”
“You are quite right. Everything is arranged, however, and I want you to
go. You will do just as you planned.”
David thought he noticed an amused expression on his father’s face, but
he was not quite sure. It did seem, though, that his manner had changed
remarkably in the last few days. His former reluctance had given way to
seeming eagerness. But in the feverishness of his excitement David did
not appraise these observations at their proper value and soon forgot
them entirely.
At last the memorable day actually arrived. The weeks of waiting had
seemed an eternity. But here he was, aboard the great boat; some of the
people about him were crying and for a moment he felt a strange feeling
coming upon him. Going was not so easy as he had thought. Just then the
bell warned all visitors to go ashore and amid the last farewells he was
reminded of one thing.
“Do not forget,” his father said, “you may return at any time you like
and you will be welcome at home. Even if you stay only a few days, the
experience of the voyage will be of value and you will be more content
to settle down. Perhaps you will be back soon.”
They went ashore. The gangway was raised and the engines began to throb
ever so slowly as the ship backed out of her berth. Not long after that
the boat was well out in the bay and the crowd that lined the dock
merged into a waving mass in which it was impossible to distinguish
anyone.
Those last words filled David with something like resentment.