All for Love; or, Her Heart's Sacrifice — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
All for Love; or, Her Heart's Sacrifice
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It was Charley Bonair, sick at heart and troubled, who had hidden
himself there in the solitude of the beautiful night to puzzle over the
problem of his destiny.
He thought he had worked it all out before in the moonlight nights on
the yacht, before he had landed from it at San Francisco. But that was
when he had believed that Berenice Vining was surely dead, and that
nothing remained but his duty to Rosalind.
Now it all rose again like a ghost that would not down--the struggle
between his heart and his duty, for they did not agree.
His troth plight held him to Rosalind, his love belonged to Berry.
But the pure little cottage maiden would not accept the heart without
the hand.
Now that he knew she still lived, his heart was in a tumult between
love and pride and duty.
He did not wish to make a mésalliance. His pride clung to Rosalind, the
heiress, and he felt he owed her all respect and duty.
But his code of morals was so lax that if he could have possessed Berry
without a wedding ring, he would have been loyal to her, even while
wedding her rival, and found a measure of happiness in the double life.
But so certain was he of the little maiden’s stainless purity, that he
knew it would be useless to reveal himself to her, although sobbing
there in touch of his hand.
At the first sign of his presence he knew that she would fly from him
in alarm and consternation.
He had come home determined to be good, and delight all his relatives
by asking Rosalind to name the wedding day. He had decided that since
Berry must surely be dead he could jog along quite comfortably with
the blond beauty. Since neither one professed to be greatly in love,
there would be plenty of ways for such rich people to keep out of each
other’s way.
All at once now he went back to his old resolve.
“I must marry Rosalind and be done with it. There would be no end of a
bother with my folks, and probably disinheritance, if I cut the whole
thing and married little Berry. Besides, Rose is a good girl, after
all, and it would be a shame to break her heart.”
Just as he came to this eminently virtuous resolution, and was softly
rising to sneak away from the temptation of folding the sobbing Berry
to his heart, there came an unlooked-for incident.
The sound of muffled footsteps suddenly paused by the tree, and a
hoarse voice muttered impatiently:
“Why did you fail to keep the tryst, girl? It is long since the
midnight bell tolled, and I grew weary of waiting.”
Berry gave such a convulsive start backward that the blossoming shrubs
behind her were shaken, and dropped a shower of sweet flower petals to
the ground.
“I--I--oh, I was so wretched thinking of my dear mother dead and my
lost home, and the sorrows of my life, that I forgot everything else,”
faltered the poor girl, with a dazed air. “What was it, please, you
wanted of me?”