Are Parents People? — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Are Parents People?
John Stuart Mill · en
Well, the text was not inappropriate, Lita thought; but she had
no intention of listening. The situation, besides its practical
difficulties, brought all the emotion of her childhood's worries and
confusions. One of her very earliest recollections went back to a time
when her parents still loved each other. She and her mother had been
sitting on the floor playing with paper dolls, and suddenly her father
had appeared unexpectedly in the doorway--returned ahead of time from a
journey. What Lita specially remembered was the way her mother sprang
up in one single long motion and flung herself into his arms, and how
they had clung together and gone out of the room without a word to her,
leaving her conscious, even at four, that she was forgotten. Presently
her mother had sent her nurse, Margaret, to finish the game; but the
game was already over. Margaret was desirable when one was tired or
hungry or sleepy, but absolutely useless at games of the imagination.
After that Lita could just remember days when she would see her mother
crying--peculiar conduct for a grown-up person, since grown-up people
were never naughty or afraid and could do anything they wanted to do,
and did. It shocked Lita to see her mother cry; it was contrary to the
plan of the universe. And then, soon after this, her father, as far
as she was concerned, ceased to be; and it must be owned she did not
greatly miss him.
He ceased to be as a visible presence; but at immensely long
intervals--that is to say, once a year, at Christmas--magical presents
arrived for her, which she knew came from him. The first was the
largest doll she had ever seen. It came from Paris and brought a
trousseau in a French trunk. It was an incredible delight. She dreamed
about it at night, and could hardly believe each morning on waking
that it was reality. The only mitigation of her delight was that her
mother did not admire the doll. She said it had an ugly, stary face.
Lita, beginning the stupendous task of writing a letter of thanks,
with a lead pencil on ruled paper, wrote, "Dear Father: Mother thinks
the doll has a stary face, but I love her--" Only Margaret said that
wouldn't do, and she had to begin all over again, her round, cramped
hand pressing on the pencil until her nails were white.
When she was eight a gold bracelet arrived, set with red stones. This
time her mother was even more outspoken. She said to Aunt Minnie, "Of
course, she bought it! Isn't it just what you'd expect?" Lita guessed
that "she" meant her father's new wife, for she knew vaguely that
he had married again and was living abroad. She herself thought the
bracelet beautiful; but it was put away, and she was never allowed to
wear it. And now, only a little while before, she had seen it in an old
jewelry case of her mother's and had been surprised to find it was just
what her mother had said it was.
Then two years later a set of sables had come. This, too, her mother
had utterly condemned.
"Sables for a child of ten!"