He then again asked to see the letter; and Eugenia, ashamed to refuse,
gave it, and went out of the room.
_To Miss_ Eugenia Tyrold, Cleves.
MADAM,
The delicacy of your highly cultivated mind awes even the violent
passion which you inspire. And to this I entreat you to attribute
the trembling fear which deters me from the honour of waiting upon
Sir Hugh, while uncertain, if my addressing him might not raise
your displeasure. I forbear, therefore, to lay before him my
pretensions for soliciting your favour, from the deepest
apprehension you might think I presumed too far, upon an
acquaintance, to my unhappiness, so short; yet, as I feel it to
have excited in me the most lasting attachment, from my fixed
admiration of your virtues and talents, I cannot endure to run the
risk of incurring your aversion. Allow me then, once more, under
the sanction of that excellent lady in whose care I have had the
honour of seeing you, to entreat one moment's audience, that I may
be graced with your own commands about waiting upon Sir Hugh,
without which, I should hold myself ungenerous and unworthy to
approach him; since I should blush to throw myself at your feet
from an authority which you do not permit. I beseech you, madam, to
remember, that I shall be miserable till I know my doom; but still,
that the heart, not the hand, can alone bestow happiness on a
disinterested mind.
I have the honour to be,
Madam,
your most devoted and obedient humble servant,
ALPHONSO BELLAMY.
Sir Hugh, when he had finished the letter, heaved a sigh, and leant his
head upon his hand, considering whether or not to let it be seen by Miss
Margland; who, however, not feeling secure what his determination might
be, had so contrived to sit at the table as to read it at the same time
with himself. Nor had she weighed the interest of her curiosity amiss;
Sir Hugh, dreading a debate with her, soon put the letter into his
pocket-book, and again sent for Eugenia.
Eugenia excused herself from returning, pleaded a head-ache, and went to
bed.
Sir Hugh was in the deepest alarm; though the evening was far advanced,
he could scarce refrain from going to Etherington directly; he ordered
his carriage to be at the door at eight o'clock the next morning; and
sent a second order, a moment after, that it should not be later than
half past seven.
He then summoned Camilla, and, giving her the letter, bid her run with
it to her sister, for fear it was that she was fretting for. And soon
after, he went to bed, that he might be ready in the morning.