If I had seen Marguerite unhappy, if, in revenging myself upon her, I
could have come to her aid, I should perhaps have forgiven her, and
certainly I should have never dreamt of doing her an injury. But I
found her apparently happy, someone else had restored to her the luxury
which I could not give her; her breaking with me seemed to assume a
character of the basest self-interest; I was lowered in my own esteem
as well as in my love. I resolved that she should pay for what I had
suffered.
I could not be indifferent to what she did, consequently what would
hurt her the most would be my indifference; it was, therefore, this
sentiment which I must affect, not only in her eyes, but in the eyes of
others.
I tried to put on a smiling countenance, and I went to call on
Prudence. The maid announced me, and I had to wait a few minutes in the
drawing-room. At last Mme. Duvernoy appeared and asked me into her
boudoir; as I seated myself I heard the drawing-room door open, a light
footstep made the floor creak and the front door was closed violently.
“I am disturbing you,” I said to Prudence.
“Not in the least. Marguerite was there. When she heard you announced,
she made her escape; it was she who has just gone out.”
“Is she afraid of me now?”
“No, but she is afraid that you would not wish to see her.”
“But why?” I said, drawing my breath with difficulty, for I was choked
with emotion. “The poor girl left me for her carriage, her furniture,
and her diamonds; she did quite right, and I don’t bear her any grudge.
I met her to-day,” I continued carelessly.
“Where?” asked Prudence, looking at me and seeming to ask herself if
this was the same man whom she had known so madly in love.
“In the Champs-Elysées. She was with another woman, very pretty. Who is
she?”
“What was she like?”
“Blonde, slender, with side curls; blue eyes; very elegant.”
“Ah! It was Olympe; she is really very pretty.”
“Whom does she live with?”
“With nobody; with anybody.”
“Where does she live?”
“Rue Tronchet, No.—. Do you want to make love to her?”
“One never knows.”
“And Marguerite?”
“I should hardly tell you the truth if I said I think no more about
her; but I am one of those with whom everything depends on the way in
which one breaks with them. Now Marguerite ended with me so lightly
that I realize I was a great fool to have been as much in love with her
as I was, for I was really very much in love with that girl.”
You can imagine the way in which I said that; the sweat broke out on my
forehead.
“She was very fond of you, you know, and she still is; the proof is,
that after meeting you to-day, she came straight to tell me about it.
When she got here she was all of a tremble; I thought she was going to
faint.”
“Well, what did she say?”
“She said, ‘He is sure to come here,’ and she begged me to ask you to
forgive her.”