Camille (La Dame aux Camilias) — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Camille (La Dame aux Camilias)
John Stuart Mill · en
The general outlines were always the same. Nevertheless I was anxious
to find out something about the relations between Marguerite and
Armand. Meeting one day a man who was constantly about with known
women, I asked him: “Did you know Marguerite Gautier?”
The answer was the usual: “Very well.”
“What sort of a girl was she?”
“A fine, good girl. I was very sorry to hear of her death.”
“Had she not a lover called Armand Duval?”
“Tall and blond?”
“Yes.
“It is quite true.”
“Who was this Armand?”
“A fellow who squandered on her the little money he had, and then had
to leave her. They say he was quite wild about it.”
“And she?”
“They always say she was very much in love with him, but as girls like
that are in love. It is no good to ask them for what they can not
give.”
“What has become of Armand?”
“I don’t know. We knew him very little. He was with Marguerite for five
or six months in the country. When she came back, he had gone.”
“And you have never seen him since?”
“Never.”
I, too, had not seen Armand again. I was beginning to ask myself if,
when he had come to see me, the recent news of Marguerite’s death had
not exaggerated his former love, and consequently his sorrow, and I
said to myself that perhaps he had already forgotten the dead woman,
and along with her his promise to come and see me again. This
supposition would have seemed probable enough in most instances, but in
Armand’s despair there had been an accent of real sincerity, and, going
from one extreme to another, I imagined that distress had brought on an
illness, and that my not seeing him was explained by the fact that he
was ill, perhaps dead.
I was interested in the young man in spite of myself. Perhaps there was
some selfishness in this interest; perhaps I guessed at some pathetic
love story under all this sorrow; perhaps my desire to know all about
it had much to do with the anxiety which Armand’s silence caused me.
Since M. Duval did not return to see me, I decided to go and see him. A
pretext was not difficult to find; unluckily I did not know his
address, and no one among those whom I questioned could give it to me.
I went to the Rue d’Antin; perhaps Marguerite’s porter would know where
Armand lived. There was a new porter; he knew as little about it as I.
I then asked in what cemetery Mlle. Gautier had been buried. It was the
Montmartre Cemetery. It was now the month of April; the weather was
fine, the graves were not likely to look as sad and desolate as they do
in winter; in short, it was warm enough for the living to think a
little of the dead, and pay them a visit. I went to the cemetery,
saying to myself: “One glance at Marguerite’s grave, and I shall know
if Armand’s sorrow still exists, and perhaps I may find out what has
become of him.”