Christmas at Monticello with Thomas Jefferson — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Christmas at Monticello with Thomas Jefferson
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He had ridden ahead, breaking a track for Martha’s horse, trying to
shield her as best he could from the storm that stung their eyelids and
sifted inside collars and up sleeves. But Martha had been undismayed.
She had shouted jokes at him through the wind, ordering him to wait now
and then while she wiped the snow off her face. Eight miles they had had
to climb, the horses sliding, stumbling, and blowing through the dark
until at last they saw the brick piles and scaffolding of what was to be
their home through the weird snow light.
Not a light showed, not a feather of smoke lay on the air. Where were
all the black people who should have been there ready to serve them with
warm fires and a hot meal? Jefferson burned with hot angry impatience;
then common sense prevailed. No one could possibly have expected them
home at this hour. It was far past midnight.
The honeymoon cottage felt a trifle chilly now to his old bones, but on
that January night long ago it had held a tomblike cold. Just as he had
done on that night, now he rummaged the old brass pot beside the hearth,
finding scraps of slivers of kindling, mounding them into a heap under
the logs, struck flint, and fired a bit of bark. The tiny flame wavered
and grew as he blew upon it and coaxed fire to burn, as he had done for
his beloved. Finally it leaped in a bright blaze to the resinous pine
logs and Jefferson dropped into the chair again, trying to vision her
there, shaking the snow off her riding skirt, holding one foot and then
the other near to the blaze while he held her up with a supporting arm.
They had been very silly that night, he knew now, and was glad of the
gay nonsense that had lightened the beginning for them. Life had been
grim enough afterward. He was happy now to recall the laughter. There
had been a mouse who came calling and Martha had not screamed or leaped
on a chair as his sisters did. Instead, she had waggled her fingers at
the mouse, as it sat upright blinking at them, and had exclaimed,
“Thomas, it has big brown eyes!”
He had played the fiddle for her then, the same fiddle faithful Jupiter
had saved from the burning ruin of Shadwell. Now, he could not play any
more. Just as well. His music had belonged to people he loved. To
Martha, to Dabney Carr, who had married his sister and been his heart’s
best friend until his untimely death. Dabney Carr lay now out on this
hill, under the oak where they two had sat together while young Thomas
Jefferson blithely planned the place he would have here someday. They
had sworn then that the two of them would both be buried under those
trees. Jefferson had kept that promise. His music had belonged for a
while with his friendship for Patrick Henry, another fiddler and a
blithe and restless spirit, but most especially it had been for Martha.
He had wooed her with that fiddle—their duets had excluded her other
suitors—now it was as well that it would be forever silent, now that
there were no more loved ears to hear.