Nevertheless, as the day advanced, he made the further discomfiting
discovery that this lack of interest was not confined solely to the
table, but spread itself like a blight over the ordinary affairs of
life. He was oddly disinclined to follow any of his usual pursuits.
Mr Musgrave was unaccountably bored with everything. He experienced a
restlessness foreign to his habitual placidity, which restlessness, by
reason of its strangeness, worried him considerably. It was
inconceivable that after forty years of tranquil contentment he should
develop the quality which of all others he had found so difficult to
comprehend or sympathise with. Yet restless he was, and dissatisfied--
dissatisfied, with Moresby and the even tenor of his days. He wanted
inexplicably to fling things into a portmanteau and start off for some
place--any place that was fairly distant.
He did not, of course, yield to this extraordinary impulse. Being moved
by such an impulse was sufficiently amazing; to have obeyed it would
have been more amazing, still. He went instead into the garden and
freed Diogenes from the chain, and allowed him to exercise unchecked
over the flower borders, to the indignant astonishment of Bond, who was
preparing the beds for the spring planting.
"Blest if he ain't gone dotty over that there dog," he complained.
And the cat, who was airing herself in the belief that her enemy was
confined to the restricted limits of the chain, sought refuge up a tree,
and gloomily watched Diogenes as he gambolled below. She had refused to
follow Eliza's example and evacuate in the enemy's favour, but her
resentment of Diogenes' presence was bitter and prolonged; it declined
to soften before Diogenes' persistent overtures towards a greater
friendliness. Her disapproval remained closely associated with that
first unfortunate meeting, which proved an unforgiving spirit. Diogenes
and Mr Musgrave had decided to forget that occasion and were, as a
result, firm friends.
When Diogenes was again on the chain, and Mr Musgrave was once more
facing the unwanted viands on his table, looking about him round the
large empty room--empty that is, in the matter of companionship--he made
the biggest and most startling discovery of the lay: he was lonely--
really lonely, as he had not been since the months immediately following
his sister's marriage. Why, in the name of mystery, should he, who had
not enjoyed companionship in his home since his sister had left it, who
had not, save in a vague fashion when she left him solitary after one of
her brief return visits, felt the need of companionship, be suddenly
gripped with this desolating sense of loneliness? He could not
understand it; and it was the more disconcerting on account of his
inability to comprehend this obsession which fretted him, and prevented
him from settling calmly to the ordinary routine of the lay.