Countess Vera; or, The Oath of Vengeance — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Countess Vera; or, The Oath of Vengeance
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They walk slowly down the green, country lane, bordered with oak and
holly. The flowers are beginning to fade, and the air is sweet with
their pungent fragrance. The sky is deeply blue, with little, white,
silvery clouds sailing softly over it. The sun is shining sweet and
warm as if it were May. Little birds are singing blithely for joy as if
the spring-time had come again.
"Do you know that this is the first time I have walked by your side
since that day last spring, when you were so cruel to me?" he asks,
breaking a long interval of silence that has been perilously sweet.
"Cruel?" she says, lifting to his the half-shy gaze of the dark and
dreamy eyes.
"Yes, cruel, for you forbade me even to look at you," he answers,
smiling now over that past pain in the eager elation of the present.
"Ah, Lady Vera, you did not know then, perhaps, what a cross you laid
upon me--that I loved you even then so dearly----"
"Hush!" she cries, in such a startled voice that he pauses and looks
around to see what has frightened her.
"What is it, Lady Vera? Has anything alarmed you?" he asks her,
anxiously.
"Nothing, but that I am tired. I will sit down here on this mossy
log, and rest a moment," she answers, sinking wearily down, a sudden
paleness chasing the roses from her cheeks. Captain Lockhart throws
himself down on the short, velvety, green turf at her feet. There
ensues a short silence, broken only by the hum of the busy insects, the
song of the birds, and the soft rustle of a passing wind in the leaves
overhead.
There is some embarrassment in their silence. Her cry of alarm has
been so sharp and sudden that he does not know how to return to the
interrupted subject. And yet his heart is so full of it.
He looks into the lovely, spirited young face, and he cannot keep the
words back any longer.
He turns to her suddenly, and tells her the story of his love in
burning words, whose eloquent fire brooks no check nor remonstrance.
His face glows under its soldierly brown, his blue eyes darken with
feeling, his voice trembles with passion, but when he pauses, Lady
Vera, who has heard him through with tightly clenched hands and a
strangely blanched face, can only falter:
"You love me, Captain Lockhart? I thought--that we were only friends."
The frightened, wondering voice falls like ice upon his heart.
"Only friends," he echoes, "when I have loved you since the first hour
I saw you. Oh, Lady Vera, do not grow so pale! Is it strange that I
should love you? Others have been as wild and presumptuous as I have.
Others have come down before the fire of those dark eyes, slain by
their beauty. I know you have been cold, indifferent to all, even to me
at first. But when you thawed to me at last, when you were kindly and
friendly----"
"Yes, that was all," she interrupts him, in a kind of frantic haste. "I
was kind and friendly, that was all. I meant no more, believe me."