At the end of the lecture she sat hurriedly sorting and re-sorting what
she had gleaned; aware that her attention had again and again wandered
off with single statements that had appealed to her, longing to
communicate with other members of the audience in the hope of filling up
the gaps. Perhaps the questions would bring back some of the things she
had missed. But no one seemed to have anything to ask. The relaxation of
the hearty and prolonged applause, had given way to the sort of silence
that falls in a room after vociferous greetings, when the anticipated
occasion vanishes and the gathered friends become suddenly
unrecognisably small and dense. She looked at the woman at her side and
caught a swift responsive glance that shocked her, clear blue and white
and remote in limpid freshness though it was, with its chill
understanding familiarity. Something had gone irrevocably from the
evening and from herself. The strange woman was exactly like somebody
.... a disguise of somebody. Shattering the silence came a voice from
the back of the hall. “If the lecturer _thinks_, and seems to deprecate
the fact, that theology deals with metaphysical problems in an
_unmetaphysical_ way, that is, from the point of view of metaphysic, in
an _unscientific_ way ....” compared to Dr. McHibbert’s his voice was
like the voice of an intoxicated man arguing to himself in a railway
carriage ..... “may we not _say_ that when metaphysic takes upon itself
to criticise the validity of _scientific_ conceptions, it does so, from
the point of view of _science_ in an unscientific way?”
This Miriam felt, was terribly unanswerable. But the hushed platform was
alive with the standing figure almost before the muffling of the last
emphatic word told that the assailant had re-assumed his seat.
“I think I have said” his face beaming with the repressed radiance of an
invading smile, was lifted towards the audience, but the blue eyes
modestly addressed the frill of green along the platform edge, “that
metaphysic, with respect to some of the conceptions of science, while
admitting that they have their uses for practical purposes, denies that
they are exactly true. Theology does not deny the problems of
metaphysic, but answers them in a way metaphysic cannot accept.”
“In that case _Theology_” began a rich, reverberating clerical voice
.....
“This is veggy boring” said the woman.
He was going to claim, thought Miriam, noting the evidence of foreign
intelligence in her neighbour’s pronunciation, that religion, like
metaphysic and science, had a right to its premises and denied that
metaphysic was adequate for the study of the ultimate nature of reality,
exactly as metaphysic denied that science was adequate.
“Yes, isn’t it” she murmured, a little late, through the deep caressing
thunder of the clerical voice, wondering how far she had admitted her
willingness to be at the disposal of anyone who found, in these
tremendous onslaughts, nothing but irrelevance.