Miriam desired only to escape into the night. Just outside, in the
darkness, was the balm that would disperse her disquietude. The
grey-clad woman held it suspended in the hot room, piling mountainously
up. But they sat enclosed, a closely locked party of two. Conversation
was going on all over the room. This woman with her little deprecating
frown at the idea of immediate departure, had the secret of the
congregational aspect of audiences. Miriam sat still, passively
surrendering to the forcible initiation into the new role of lingerer,
to the extent of floundering through absent-minded responses.
“What?” she said suddenly, turning full round. Something had thrilled
upon the air about her, bringing the whole evening to a head.
“Haldane’s Pathway to Reality” repeated the woman as their eyes met.
Miriam was held by the intense radiance of the blue eyes. Light,
strangely cool and pure, flowed from the still face. She was beautiful,
with a curious impersonal glowless beauty. The light that came from her
was the light of something she saw, habitually.
“But I ought not to recommend you to read. You ought to spend all your
free time in the open air. Moreover, it’s very stiff reading.”
Miriam rose, beleaguered and flinching. How did people find out about
books? Where did they get them from? This woman could not afford to buy
big expensive volumes...... Why did her quick mind assume that the
difficulty of the book would be a barrier, and not see that it was the
one book she was waiting for, even if it were the stiffest and dryest in
the world?...... But the title was unforgettable; one day she would come
across the book somewhere and get at its meaning in her own way.
“Well; we may meet next week, if we are both early; I shall be early.”
She rose enlivening her grey cloak with the swift grace of her movements
and together they proceeded down the rapidly emptying room.
“My name is Lucie Duclaux.”
The shock of this unexpected advance arrested Miriam’s rapid flight
towards the harbour of solitude. She smiled a formal acknowledgment,
unable and entirely unwilling to identify herself with a name. Her
companion, remaining close in her neighbourhood as they threaded their
way amongst talking groups along the corridor, said nothing more, and
when they reached the doorway Miriam’s determination to be free, kept
her blind and dumb. She was aware of an exclamation about the rain. That
was enough. She would not risk a parting intimate enough to suggest
another meeting, with anyone who at the sight of rain, belaboured the
air and the people about her, with an exclamation that was, however
gracious and elegant, a deliberate assault, condemning her moreover of
the possession of two voices...... Gathering up her Lucie Duclaux cloak,
the woman bowed swiftly and disappeared into the night.