“There will be nothing worth heahghing till he sums up” said her
companion and went on to ask her if she meant to attend the next
lecture. Miriam perceived that unless she chose to escape forcibly, her
companion had her in a close net of conversation. She glanced and saw
that her face was already that of a familiar associate, no longer
spurring her to trace to its source the strange impression that at first
it had given her of being a forgotten face, whose sudden return,
unrecognisably disguised, and yet so recognisable, filled her with a
remembered sentiment of dislike.
“Rather” she said and then, watching the opening prospect of the long
series of speeches, and protected by the monotonous booming of a
pessimistic male voice “I’m so awfully relieved to find that science is
only half true. But I _can’t_ see why he says that metaphysic is no
practical use. It would make _all_ the difference every moment, to know
for certain that mind is more real than matter.”
“Pahghfaitement.”
Dr. McHibbert’s voice interrupted her, damming up the urgent flow of
communications. She watched him, listening without attention.
“He’s like a marvellously intelligent bolster” she said tonelessly “but
with a heart and a soul. He certainly has a soul.”
Flattered by a soft chuckle of amusement, she added in a low murmuring
man’s voice “the objectors are like candle-lit turnip ghosts,” and was
rewarded by the first direct glance from the blue eyes, smiling,
assuring her that she was acceptable. The ghost of the remembered face
was laid. Whoever it was, if in reality it were to reappear in her life,
she would be able to overcome her aversion by bold flirtation.
When the lecturer at last rose to reply, the guiding phrases of his
discourse were the worn familiar keys of a past experience. Used for the
second time at the doors of the chambers they had opened within the
background of life, they grated, hesitating, and the heavy sound threw
the bright spaces into shadow and spread a film of doubt over Miriam’s
eagerness to escape and share her illumination with people waiting
outside in the surrounding gloom. The light would return and remain for
her. But it was something accomplished unaccountably. The mere
reproduction of the magic phrases, even when after solitary peaceful
contemplation she should have reassembled them in their right relations
and their marvellously advancing sequence, would not carry her hearers
along the road she had travelled. The something that held them together,
lively and enlivening, was incommunicable.
“Don’t huggy away. The audience will take a considerable time to
disperse.”