“There is _indeed_ a vulgarity in perfect health,” he exclaimed.
“Yes,” she said hurriedly, carrying off the statement for examination,
as peacefully he went on reading. What did vulgarity mean, or perfect
health? Nobody knew. Dante ennobled the vulgar tongue.... People went on
forever writing books using the same words with different meanings. Her
eyes returned to the relaxed unconscious form. He thought too much of
books. Yet it did not appal him to think of giving up his free
intellectual life and taking to work. ‘I shall still be an interested
amateur.’ ... He would go on reading, all his life, sitting as he was
sitting now, grave and beautiful; with a mind outspread in a mental
experience so wide that he was indifferent to the usual ideas of freedom
and advantage. Yet he did not seem to be aware how much the sitting like
this, linked to the world by its deep echo in the book, was a
realisation of life as he saw it. It did not occur to him that this
serenity, in which were accumulated all the hours they had passed
together, _was_ realisation, the life of the world in miniature, making
a space where everything in human experience could emerge like a
reflection in deep water, with its proportions held true and right by
the tranquil opposition of their separate minds. She summoned onlookers,
who instantly recognised themselves in this picture of leisure. It was
in every life that was not astray in ceaseless movement. It was the
place where everything was atoned. He fitted placed thus, happy, without
problems or envies, in possession of himself and his memories in the
room where he had voiced them, into the centre of English life where all
turned to good, in the last fastness of the private English mind where
condemnation could not live. He reinforced it with a consciousness that
was not in the English, making it show as an idea, revealing in plain
terms their failure to act it out...... Thus would his leisure always
be. But it was no part of her life. In this tranquillity there was no
security .... we will always sit like this; we must, she said within
herself impatiently towards his unconsciousness. Why did he not
_perceive_ the life there was, the mode of life, in this sitting
tranquilly together? Was he thinking of nothing but his reading? She
listened for a moment half carried into the quality of the text. There
was reality there, Spinoza, by himself, sounding as if the words were
being traced out now, for the first time. One day in a moment of
blankness, she would read it and agree and disagree and carry away some
idea and lose and recover it and go on, losing and recovering, agreeing
and disagreeing....