Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6
John Stuart Mill · en
“You could not possibly have a better book for style and phraseology in
English, quite apart from the meaning.”
“_No_,” he said, with reproachful gravity, “preciosity I cannot have.”
Miriam felt out of her depth. “Perhaps you won’t like Emerson,” she
said, “but it will be good practice for you. You need not attend to the
meaning.”
“Well, ach-ma, we shall try, but not this evanink; I have headache, we
shall rather talk; let us return to the soobjects we have discussed
yesterday.” He rested his elbows on the table, supporting his chin on
one hand, his beard askew, one eye reduced to a slit by the bulge of his
pushed up cheek, his whole face suddenly pallid and heavy,
sleepy-looking.
“I am _most_-interested in philosophy,” he said, glowering warmly
through his further, wide-open eye. “It was very good to me. I found
myself most excited after our talk of yesterday. I think you too were
interested?”
“Yes, wasn’t it extraordinary?” Miriam paused to choose between the
desire to confess her dread of confronting a full-fledged student and a
silence that would let him go on talking while she contemplated a series
of reflections extending forward out of sight from his surprising
admission of fellowship. It was so strange, an exhilaration so deep and
throwing such wide thought-inviting illumination, to discover that he
had found yesterday exceptional; that he too, with all his wonderful
life, found interest scattered only here and there. Meanwhile his
eagerness to rekindle without fresh fuel, the glow of yesterday,
confessed an immaturity that filled her with a tumult of astonished
solicitude.
“You must let me correct your English to-day,” she said, busily taking
him with her voice by the hand in a forward rush into the empty hour
that was to test, perhaps to destroy the achievement of their first
meeting. “Just now you said ‘the subjects we have discussed yesterday.’
‘Have’ is the indefinite past; ‘yesterday,’ as you used it, is a
definite point of time; passé défini, we _discussed_ yesterday. We have
always discussed these things on Thursdays. We always discussed these
things on Thursdays. Those two phrases have different meanings. The
first indefinite because it suggests the discussions still going on, the
second definite referring to a fixed period of past time.”
She had made her speech at the table and glanced up at him
apologetically. Marvelling at her unexpected knowledge of the grammar of
her own tongue, called into being she supposed by the jar of his
inaccuracy, she had for a moment almost forgotten his presence.
“I perceive,” he said shifting his chin on his hand to face her fully,
with bent head and moving beard-point; his voice came again as strange,
from an immense distance; he was there like a ghost; “that you are in
spite of your denials a most excellent institutrice. Ach-ma! My English
is bad. You shall explain me all these complications of English
verb-mixing; but to-night I am reeally too stupid.”