shaped, held back by the pity they turned towards the blind life of men;
but it was _alone_ in its vision of the spaces opening beyond the world
of daily life.
The open scene, that seemed at once without her and within, beckoned and
claimed her, extending for ever, without horizons, bringing to her
contemplating eye a moving expansion of sight ahead and ahead, earth and
sky left behind, across flower-spread plains whose light was purer and
brighter than the light of day. Here was the path of advance. But
pursuing it she must be always alone; supported in the turmoil of life
that drove the haunting scene away, hidden beyond the hard visible
horizon, by the remembered signs and smiles of these far-off lonely
women.
* * * * *
Between them and their second week stood a promised visit to the Brooms;
offering itself each time she surveyed it, under a different guise. But
when, for their last evening together, he surprised her, so little did
he ever seem to plan or reflect, with stall tickets for the opera she
was overwhelmed by the swift regardless pressure of events. Opera, for
ever outside her means and forgotten, descending thus suddenly upon her
without space for preparation of mind, would seem to be wasted. Not in
such unseemly haste could she approach this crowning ornament of social
life. She was speechless, too, before the revelation of his private
ponderings. She knew he was indifferent, even to the theatre, and that
he could not afford this tremendous outlay. His recklessness was
selfless; a great planning for her utmost recreation. In her
satisfaction he was to be content. Touched to the heart she tried to
express her sense of all these things, much hampered by the dismayed
anticipation of failure, on the great evening, to produce any satisfying
response. She knew she would dislike opera; fat people, with huge
voices, screaming against an orchestra, in the pretence of expressing
emotions they had never felt. But he assured her that opera was very
beautiful, Faust perhaps the most beautiful and charming of all, and
drew her attention to the massed voices. To this idea she clung, in the
interval, for enlightenment.