The little leaves, seen from the doorstep, shone like bright enamel in
the misty twilight; but their beautiful wild clean-cut shapes, so near,
suddenly seemed helpless, unable to escape, forced to drape the walls,
life-fevered within, to which their stems were pinned..... But there was
a coming in and out...... All people in houses had a coming in and out,
those moments of coming, anew out into endless space. And everywhere at
moments, in houses, was the sense of the life of the whole world flowing
in. Even Jewish houses were porous to the life of the world, and to have
a house, however strangely shaped one’s life, would be to have a vantage
point for breathing in the life of the world...... She stood in a lull,
reprieved, her endlessly revolving problem left behind, the future in
abeyance, perhaps to be shown her by the woman waiting within, set in
surroundings that now called to her jubilantly, proclaiming themselves
to be the only object of her visit. For a moment she found herself back
in her old sense of the marvel of existence, gazing at the miraculous
spectacle of people and things, existing; herself, however, perplexed
and resourceless, within it, everything sinking into insignificance
beside the fact of being alive, having lived on to another moment of
unexplainable glorious happiness. Light-heartedly she rang the bell. The
small movement of her lifted hand was supported, a permitted part of the
whole tremendous panorama; and in that whole she was _England_, a link
in the world-wide being of England and English life. The bell, grinding
out its summons within the house, brought her back within the limits of
the occasion, but she could not drive away the desire to go forward
without return, claiming welcome and acceptance, in a life permanently
set in beauty.