The Queen, who is religious, puts love before religion, for woman. Her
Protestantism. He for God only, she for God in him and able to change
her creed when she marries. A Catholic _couldn’t_. And she would call
Catholics idolators. _She_ is an idolator; of men.
Mrs. Bergstein was amazed at his willingness. Envious...... _I am a Jew,
a ‘head’ man incapable of ‘love’...... It is your eyes. I_ _must see
them always...... I know now what is meant by love...... I am even
willing to renounce my Judaism...... Michael_ to think and say that. I
am crowned, for life; by a sacrifice I cannot accept. He must keep his
Judaism...... You _must_ marry me...... The discovery, flowing through
the grey noisy street, of the secret of the ‘mastery’ idea; that women
can only be sure that a man is sure when----
“There is then _no_ common religious feeling between you?”
She had moved. The light fell upon her. She was about _forty_. She had
come forth, so late, from the secret numbness of her successful
independent life, and had not found what she came to seek. She was still
alone in her circling day. At the period of evening dress she put on a
heavy gold bracelet, ugly, a heavy ugly shape. Her face was pinched and
drawn; before her lay the ordeal of belated motherhood. Vulgarly
violating her refined endurance had come this incident. Dignified
condemnation spoke from her averted eyes. She had said her say and was
desiring that there should be no further waste of time.
Miriam made no sound. In the stillness that followed the blow she faced
the horrible summary, stricken to her feet, her strength ebbing with her
thoughts into the gathering swirling darkness. She waited for a moment.
But Mrs. Bergstein made no sign. Imponderable, conscious only of the
weight of her body about her holding her to the ground beneath her feet,
she went away from the room and the house. In the lamplit darkness her
feet carried her joyously forward into the freshness of the tree-filled
air. The large square lying between her and the street where he was
waiting seemed an immensity. She recovered within it the strange
unfailing freedom of solitude in the sounding spaces of London and
hurried on to be by his side generally expressive of her rejoicing. The
world’s condemnation was out of sight behind her. But he would ask, and
whatever she said, the whole problem would be there afresh, insoluble.
He would never see that it had been confirmed, never admit anything
contemptible in their association...... It was because there was no
contempt in him that she was hurrying. But alone again with him, the
troubled darkness behind her would return with its maddening influence.
She was fleeing from it only towards its darkest centre.
_The Mayflower Press, Plymouth, England._ William Brendon & Son,
Ltd.
THREE
LOVING
LADIES