“Well, _no_,” said Miriam startled into briskness by the too quickly
developing accumulation of speech. “I heard that you had done so; and
wondered, how it was possible, for an Englishwoman.”
“You are a Christian?”
“I don’t know. I was brought up in the Anglican Church.”
“Much depends upon the standpoint from which one approaches the very
definite and simple creed of Judaism. I myself was a Unitarian, and
therefore able to take the step without making a break with my earlier
convictions.”
“I see,” said Miriam coldly. Fate had deceived her, holding in reserve
the trick of this simple explanation. She gazed at the seated figure.
The glow of her surroundings was quenched by the chill of a perpetually
active _reason_.... Science, ethics, withering common-sense playing over
everything in life, making a harsh bareness everywhere, seeing nothing
alive but the cold processes of the human mind; having Tennyson read at
services because poetry was one of the superior things produced by
humanity...... She wondered whether this woman, so exactly prepared to
meet a Jewish reform movement, had been helplessly born into
Unitarianism, or had taken it up as she herself had nearly done.
“Much of course depends upon the synagogue through which one is
admitted.” Ah; she _had_ felt the impossibilities. She had compromised
and was excusing her compromise.
“Of course I have heard of the reform movement.” .. The silence quivered
with the assertion that the reformers were as much cut off from Judaism
as Unitarianism from Anglican Christianity. To enter a synagogue that
made special arrangements for the recognition of women was to admit that
women were dependent on recognition. The silence admitted the dilemma.
Mrs. Bergstein had passed through these thoughts, suffering? Though she
had found a way through, following her cold clear reason, she still
suffered?
“I think I should find it impossible to associate with Jewish _women_.”
“_That_ is a point you must consider very carefully indeed.” The room
leapt into glowing reality. They _were_ at one; Englishwomen with a
common incommunicable sense. Outcasts...... Far away, within the warm
magic circle of English life, sounded the careless easy slipshod voices
of Englishmen, she saw their averted talking forms, aware in every line,
and protective, of something that Englishwomen held in their hands.
“Don’t you find” she began breathlessly, but calm even tones drove
across her eagerness: “What is your fiancé’s attitude towards religion?”
“He is not exactly religious and not fully in sympathy with the reform
movement because he is a Zionist and thinks that the old ritual is the
only link between the persecuted Jews and those who are better placed;
that it would be treachery to break with it as long as any are
persecuted........ Nevertheless, he is willing to renounce his Judaism.”