Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6
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How _obliviously_ they all talked on. She thanked them. With their talk
flowing across the table, giving the central golden glow of light a
feeling of permanence, her failures in life, strident about the room,
were visible and audible only to herself. If she could remain silent,
they would die down, and the stream of her unworthy life would merge,
before he appeared, into a semblance of oneness with these other
lives....... She caught the dark Russian eyes of Mr. Rodkin sitting
opposite. He smiled through his glasses, his dry, sweet, large-eyed
smile, his head turned listening to his neighbour. She beamed her
response, relieved, as if they had had a long satisfactory conversation.
He would have understood ... in spite of his commercial city-life. He
accepted everybody. He was the central kindliness of the room. No wonder
Mrs. Bailey was so fond of him and leant upon his presence, in spite of
his yawning hatred of Sundays. He was illuminated; she had his secret at
last given her by Mr. Shatov. _Russian_ kindliness...... Russians
understand silence and are not afraid of it? Kindly silence comes out of
their speech, and lies behind it, leaving things the same whatever has
been said? This would be truer of him than of Mr. Shatov ....... moy
word. Shatov at the station with his father. You never saw such a thing.
Talking to the old boy as if he was a porter; snapping his head off
whenever he spoke...... She pulled up sharply. If she thought of him,
the fact that she was only passing the time would become visible ......
what was that just now, opening; about silence?
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