Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6
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She trotted round the open door, carefully closing it with her body, her
steady eyes taking in the disposition of affairs. In a moment she stood
near the table, the silky rounded golden crown of her head rising just
above it. Miriam thrilled at her nearness, delighting in the firm clutch
of the tiny hand on the edge of the table, the gentle shapely bulge of
the ends of her hair inturned towards her neck, the little busy bustling
expression of her bunchy motionless little muslin dress. Suddenly she
looked up in her way, Gerald’s disarming gentleness, all Eve’s reined-in
gaiety ... “I your baby?” she asked with a small lunge of affection.
Miriam blushed. The tiny thing had _remembered_ from yesterday ......
Yes, she murmured encircling her and pressing her lips to the warm
silken top of her head. Gerald burst into loud wailing. Elspeth moved
backwards towards Harriett and stood propped against her, contemplating
him with sunny interest. Harriett’s firm ringed hand covered the side of
her head.
“Poor Poppa” she suggested.
“Be _cri_-ut Gerald!” Elspeth cried serenely, frowning with effort. She
stood on tip-toe surveying the contents of the table and waved a
peremptory hand towards the gramophone. Gerald tried to make a bargain.
Lifted on to Harriett’s knee she bunched her hands and sat compact. The
direct rays made her head a little sunlit sphere, smoothly outlined with
silky pale gold hair bulging softly over each ear, the broken curve
continued by the gentle bulge of her cheeks as she pursed her face to
meet the sunlight. She peered unsmiling, but every curve smiled; a
little sunny face, sunlit. Fearing that she would move, Miriam tried to
centre attention by seeming engrossed in Gerald’s operations, glancing
sideways meanwhile in an entrancement of effort to define her small
perfection. The list of single items summoned images of children who
missed her charm by some accentuation of character, pointing backwards
to the emphatic qualities of a relative and forward so clearly that
already they seemed adult. Elspeth predicted nothing. The closest
observation revealed no point of arrest. Her undivided impression once
caught, could be recovered in each separate feature.
Eve came in as the music ceased. In the lull that followed the general
greetings Miriam imagined a repetition of the song, to carry Eve back
into what had gone before and forward with them in the unchanged
morning. But Mrs. Thimm broke in with a tray and scattered them all
towards the fire. Let’s hear Molly Darling once more she thought in a
casual tone. After yesterday Eve would take that as a lack of interest
in her presence. Supposing she did? She was so changed that she could be
treated without consideration, as an equal ...... but she overdid it,
preening herself, caring more for the idea of independence than for the
fact. That would not keep her going. She would not be strong enough to
sustain her independence ......