Deirdre of the Sorrows — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Deirdre of the Sorrows
John Stuart Mill · en
CONCHUBOR.
— _furiously._ — Fergus cannot stop me. I am more powerful than he is,
though I am defeated and old.
FERGUS.
— _comes in to Deirdre; a red glow is seen behind the grove._ — I have
destroyed Emain, and now I’ll guard you all times, Deirdre, though it
was I, without knowledge, brought Naisi to his grave.
CONCHUBOR.
It’s not you will guard her, for my whole armies are gathering. Rise
up, Deirdre, for you are mine surely.
FERGUS.
— _coming between them._ — I am come between you.
CONCHUBOR.
— _wildly._ — When I’ve killed Naisi and his brothers, is there any man
that I will spare? And is it you will stand against me, Fergus, when
it’s seven years you’ve seen me getting my death with rage in Emain?
FERGUS.
It’s I, surely, will stand against a thief and a traitor.
DEIRDRE.
— _stands up and sees the light from Emain._ — Draw a little back with
the squabbling of fools when I am broken up with misery. (_She turns
round._) I see the flames of Emain starting upward in the dark night;
and because of me there will be weasels and wild cats crying on a
lonely wall where there were queens and armies and red gold, the way
there will be a story told of a ruined city and a raving king and a
woman will be young for ever. (_She looks round._) I see the trees
naked and bare, and the moon shining. Little moon, little moon of
Alban, it’s lonesome you’ll be this night, and tomorrow night, and long
nights after, and you pacing the woods beyond Glen Laoi, looking every
place for Deirdre and Naisi, the two lovers who slept so sweetly with
each other.
FERGUS.
— _going to Conchubor’s right and whispering._ — Keep back, or you will
have the shame of pushing a bolt on a queen who is out of her wits.
CONCHUBOR.
It is I who am out of my wits, with Emain in flames, and Deirdre
raving, and my own heart gone within me.
DEIRDRE.
— _in a high and quiet tone._ — I have put away sorrow like a shoe that
is worn out and muddy, for it is I have had a life that will be envied
by great companies. It was not by a low birth I made kings uneasy, and
they sitting in the halls of Emain. It was not a low thing to be chosen
by Conchubor, who was wise, and Naisi had no match for bravery. It is
not a small thing to be rid of grey hairs, and the loosening of the
teeth. (_With a sort of triumph._) It was the choice of lives we had in
the clear woods, and in the grave, we’re safe, surely. . . .
CONCHUBOR.
She will do herself harm.