"When you talk like that," he said, smiling at her pleasantly, "you
convince me that my judgment is right... Oh! don't worry," he added in
response to a quick gesture of protest; "I'm not going to rely on
anything so stodgy. I'm going to follow inclination. Remain my dear
little friend... If there is no great good to you in it, there shall be
no great harm in it either... And, in any case, it won't matter much...
I am going away shortly."
"Going away!" she echoed blankly. "Leaving Cape Town, do you mean?"
"Yes."
She turned to him with a swift abandonment that proved how strong was
the influence he already exerted over her, and with white face, and
distressful, tear-filled eyes, cried out--
"Oh! don't go! don't go! ... Or--couldn't you--take me with you?"
He came to an abrupt standstill, and leaning towards her, with his hand
resting on the saddle of the cycle, looked steadily into the shamed,
young, piteous face. His look brought the colour flaming back into the
white cheeks.
"Ah! now you think me unwomanly," she said, and her voice shook
pitifully... "You won't like me any more..."
"My dear!" he replied, "you are talking nonsense."
Her head drooped lower and lower like a flower that is beaten down in a
storm. She stared down at the strong, sunburnt hand gripping the
saddle, and the slow tears overflowed and fell, big, shining drops, into
the dust of the road. She made no effort to stay them or to wipe them
away; and the man, watching her with his keen, observant eyes, was
stirred with an unwonted sense of compassion, and a swift self-hatred
because of what he had in idle selfishness done.
"If you knew me for what I am," he said gravely, "you would not honour
me with your friendship. I'm not the hero your fancy has painted. A
man rates himself at a higher valuation usually than his deserts, but as
high as I can place the standard it leaves me still unworthy of your
regard."
"And you don't feel... contempt for me?" she faltered.
"No... The only contempt I feel is for myself." He held out his hand
to her. "We are coming to the more frequented part," he said. "I would
prefer that you mounted and rode into town."
She gave him her hand shyly, but still she hesitated.
"You promise not to withdraw your friendship?" she pleaded. "I--I don't
know what I should do if--if you wouldn't let me be--just a friend."