When the cook shut the door of the little room the house disappeared.
The front rooms bathed in bright light and hot with the afternoon heat,
the wide afterglow along the front, the vast open lid of the sky, were
in another world.... Miriam pushed back the other half of the window and
they sat down in a green twilight on the edge of the garden. If others
had been there Mrs. Henderson would have remarked on the pleasantness of
the situation and tried to respond to it and been dreadfully downcast at
her failure and brave. Miriam held her breath as they settled
themselves. No remark came. The secret was safe. When she lifted the
cosy the little tea-pot shone silver-white in the strange light. A thick
grey screen of sky must be there, above the trees, for the garden was an
intensity of deep brilliance, deep bright green and calceolarias and
geraniums and lobelias, shining in a brilliant gloom. It was not a
seaside garden ... it was a garden ... all gardens. They took their meal
quietly and slowly, speaking in low tones. The silent motionless
brilliance was a guest at their feast. The meal-time, so terrible in the
hopelessness of home, such an effort in the mocking glare of the
boarding-house was a great adventure. Mrs. Henderson ate almost half as
much as Miriam, serenely. Miriam felt that a new world might be opening.
6
“The storm has cleared the air wonderfully.”
“Yes; isn’t it a blessing.”
“Perhaps I shan’t want the beef-tea to-night.” Miriam hung up her dress
in the cupboard, listening to the serene tone. The dreadful candle was
flickering in the night-filled room, but mother was quietly making a
supreme effort.
“I don’t expect you will”; she said casually from the cupboard, “it’s
ready if you should want it. But you won’t want it.”
“It _is_ jolly and fresh,” she said a moment later from the window,
holding back the blind. Perhaps in a few days it would be the real jolly
seaside and she would be young again, staying there alone with mother,
just ridiculous and absurd and frantically happy, mother getting better
and better, turning into the fat happy little thing she ought to be, and
they would get to know people and mother would have to look after her
and love her high spirits and admire and scold her and be shocked as she
used to be. They might even bathe. It would be heavenly to be really at
the seaside with just mother. They would be idiotic.
Mrs. Henderson lay very still as Miriam painted the acid above the
unseen nerve centres and composed herself afterwards quietly without
speaking. The air was fresh in the room. The fumes of the acid did not
seem so dreadful to-night.