Honeycomb : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 3 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Honeycomb : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 3
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She pulled up sharply in front of a window. The pavement round it was
clear, allowing her to stand rooted where she had been walking, in the
middle of the pavement, in the midst of the tide flowing from the clear
window, a soft fresh tide of sunlit colours ... clear green glass
shelves laden with shapes of fluted glass, glinting transparencies of
mauve and amber and green, rose-pearl and milky blue, welded to a
flowing tide, freshening and flowing through her blood, a sea rising and
falling with her breathing.
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The edge had gone from the keenness of the light. The street was a
happy, sunny, simple street--small. She was vast. She could gather up
the buildings in her arms and push them away, clearing the sky ... a
strange darkling and she would sleep. She felt drowsy, a drowsiness in
her brain and limbs and great strength, and hunger.
A clock told her she had been away from Brook Street ten minutes. Twenty
minutes to spare. What should she do with her strength? Talk to someone
or write ... Bob; where was Bob? Somewhere in the West End. She would
write from the West End a note to him in the West End.
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There were no cheap shops in Regent Street. She looked about. Across the
way a little side street showing a small newspaper shop offered help.
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Thoroughly frightened she hurried with clenched hands down the little
mean street ready to give up her scheme at the first sight of an
unfriendly eye. “We went through those _awful_ side streets off the West
End; I was _terrified_; I didn’t know _where_ he was driving us,” Mrs.
Poole had said about a cabman driving to the theatre ... and her face as
she sat in her thick pink dress by the dining-room fire had been cunning
and mean and full of terror. A small shop appeared close at hand, there
were newspaper posters propped outside it and its window was full of
fly-blown pipes, toilet requisites, stationery and odd-looking books.
“Letters may be left here,” said a dirty square of cardboard in the
corner of the window. “That’s all right,” thought Miriam, “it’s a sort
of agency.” She plunged into the gloomy interior. “_Yes!_” shouted a
tall stout man with a red coarse face coming forward, as if she had
asked something that had made him angry. “I want some notepaper, just a
little, the smallest quantity you have and an envelope,” said Miriam,
quivering and panic-stricken in the hostile atmosphere. The man turned
and whisked a small packet off a shelf, throwing it down on the counter
before her. “One penny!” bellowed the man as she took it up. “Oh, thank
you,” murmured Miriam ingratiatingly putting down twopence. “Do you sell
pencils?” The man’s great fingers seemed an endless time wrenching a
small metal-sheathed pencil from its card. The street outside would have
closed in and swallowed her up forever if she did not quickly get away.