Honeycomb : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 3 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Honeycomb : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 3
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The letters from home gleamed with descriptions of the
increasing store of presents and new-made clothing. Miriam felt that
they were her own; she would see them all at the last best moment when
they were complete. She would have all that and all her pride in the
outgoing lives of Sarah and Harriett that were like two sunlit streams.
And meanwhile here within her hands was Newlands. Three weeks of days
and nights of untroubled beauty. Interminable.
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The roses were in bud. Every day she managed to visit them at least
once, running out alone into the garden at twilight and coming back rich
with the sense of the twilit green garden and the increasing stripes of
colour between the tight shining green sheaths.
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There had been no more talk of painting lessons. The idea had died in
Mrs. Corrie’s mind the day after it had been born and a strange
interest, something dreadful that was happening in London had taken its
place. It seemed to absorb her completely and to spread a strange
curious excitement throughout the house. She sent a servant every
afternoon up to the station for an evening newspaper. The pink papers
disappeared, but she was perpetually making allusions to their strange
secret in a way that told Miriam she wanted to impart it and that
irritated without really arousing her interest. She felt that anything
that was being fussed over in pink evening papers was probably really
nothing at all. She could not believe that anything that had such a
strange effect on Mrs. Corrie could really interest her. But she longed
to know exactly what the mysterious thing was. If it was simply a
divorce case Mrs. Corrie would have told her about it, dropping out the
whole story abstractedly in one of her little shocked sentences and
immediately going on to speak of something else. She did not want to
hear anything more about divorce; all her interested curiosity in
divorced people had been dispersed by her contact with the Kronens. They
had both been divorced and their lives were broken and muddly and they
were not sure of themselves. Mrs. Kronen was strong and alone. But she
was alone and would always be. If it were a murder everybody would talk
about it openly. It must be something worse than a murder or a divorce.
She felt she must know, must make Mrs. Corrie tell her and knew at the
same time that she did not want to be distracted from the pure solid
glory of the weeks by sharing a horrible secret. The thing kept Mrs.
Corrie occupied and interested and left her free to live undisturbed. It
was a barrier between them. And yet ... something that a human being had
done that was worse than a murder or a divorce.
“Is it a divorce?” she said suddenly and insincerely one afternoon
coming upon Mrs. Corrie scanning the newly arrived newspaper in the
garden.
“Lordy no,” laughed Mrs. Corrie self-consciously, scrumpling the paper
under her arm.