"You did," he shouted, and smote the table beside which he stood so
violently that the glasses on it jingled and the water was spilled
again. This time he allowed it to remain; he appeared not to see it in
his outburst of noisy passion. "But you weren't honest with me even
then. You concealed this thing from me deliberately. You deceived me.
I believed you were a simple-hearted girl whose love I could win with
kindness. And I was kind to you. I have tried to be kind always--
though God knows! I received small return. Do you suppose I would have
married you had you told me that you loved another man? I could feel
some respect for you had you persisted in your refusal; I feel none for
you now. It was an evil day for me when you married me."
"It was the one big mistake of my life," she answered, and turned and
faced him fully, with blue eyes aflame with anger, her head lifted
proudly, almost aggressively, her face expressing cold dislike. She had
never loved Edward Morgan, but she had not until then actively disliked
him. His blustering anger, and his ill-considered taunts repelled her.
"If you care to have a separation I am quite agreeable. I think we
shall be happier apart."
"I don't doubt you would like that," he said brutally. "To be free to
gallivant in your frivolous way at my expense, and under the protection
of my name! I prefer to exercise full control over my wife. You are my
wife, remember. Nothing's going to alter that. And since you bear my
name I will see that you respect it. There's going to be no scandal in
this family. Separation! So that's what you are after! Good God! I
would sooner see you lying dead in your coffin than that you should
disgrace the name of Morgan by dragging it into the courts."
She smiled coldly. His arrogant rhetoric recalled annoyingly William's
pride in the Graynor Honour. They both seemed to fear these things were
in jeopardy through her. The tissue-paper wrappings in which they
preserved these qualities appeared to her as consistent as they were
inadequate. There was a hollow ring in all this noisy talk. Respect
was to her a personal attribute, which revealed itself daily in the
commonplace round of homely things. She was not in the least concerned
as to its chance of safe keeping in her possession.
"I'll go to bed," she said. "It isn't very profitable to stay here
wrangling at this hour of night. And to-morrow I will go home. I want
to get away. I am weary of everything."
"_This_ is your home," he said sharply. Prudence looked at him
strangely.
"This has never been home to me," she replied. "It is your home. It is
more your mother's home than mine. I have not even authority to order
the meals, or direct the household."
"That's your own fault," he returned curtly. "You evinced no interest
in these matters."
"Largely, it is my own fault," she agreed, with surprising meekness. "I
am responsible for the arrangement of my life, and I have done it very
badly."