While Edward Morgan slept heavily, and the rest of the household
slumbered on undisturbed by the early arrival, Prudence remained at her
bedroom window, wakeful and deep in thought, looking out upon the new
day, upon the garden drenched with the heavy dews and saddened looking
in its mantle of unrelieved green. There were weeds upon the paths,
which formerly had been weedless. It occurred to her that the disorder
was significant of the disorder in their own lives. They had been
careless of what they should have tended carefully, and had allowed
things to fall into neglect. There was a good deal of weeding to be
accomplished on her own account. She had let the disorder accumulate
until it threatened to choke all the pleasant places in her mind and
leave her just a discontented woman with no object in life, no mental
outlook.
Many lives as they unfold reveal a less agreeable vista than
anticipation has led one to expect. The philosophic mind makes the best
of these disappointments, and sets to work to discover hidden beauties
in the less alluring prospect ahead; it is the shallower mind which is
dismayed by adverse conditions. The road upon which Prudence had set
her feet was not the road of her inclination; it was none the less the
road she must travel. To follow it finely was the desire of her heart,
as she leaned from the window and thought sadly of the love she had let
pass out of her life, and of the responsibilities she had undertaken,
and so far neglected entirely. She had endeavoured to shape life to her
purpose, and instead life was shaping her to certain definite ends.
Prudence leaned her chin on her hand and looked down upon the white
riband of road beyond the walls. Love had appeared to her along that
road, and love had parted from her there and gone on down the road out
of her life. There were two sad hearts more in the world, that was all.
But the road of life, like the road beyond the walls, remained to be
trodden. One had to go on. It is better to travel with a brave
confidence than to cherish vain regrets.
Prudence and her husband met and had their talk out in the library after
breakfast. It was not so difficult a talk as she had imagined it would
be. Mr Morgan was as eager to make concessions as Prudence. He had
been doing a good deal of private thinking on his own account; and he
saw very clearly that his young wife had never received fair treatment.
He was anxious to make amends.
His insistence on taking the greater share of the blame left her with
curiously little to urge. She scrutinised him, faintly amused. It
occurred to her that this generous closing of differences resembled the
impulsive overtures of two children who had quarrelled needlessly and
were bent on making it up. On one point he was very decided: he refused
to open up the cause of their quarrel. All that was past. He wanted to
start afresh from that moment; he was not going to look back.