Prudence's world had not brought any of these experiences into her life.
She never met any men, save her father's friends and William's, none of
whom were calculated to awaken sentiment in the breast of a girl of
eighteen. The youngest of these was a man of forty, a nice kind old
thing, who brought her chocolates, and pulled her curls before she put
her hair up. Since the hair had gone up he had ceased to pull it, and
he did not bring her chocolates so often; his kindliness had become more
formal; but she liked him rather better on that account; the teasing had
sometimes annoyed her.
Like most girls, Prudence allowed her mind at times to dwell on the
subject of love and marriage. The older girls at school had discussed
these subjects freely: one of them had professed an undying passion for
the drawing-master, who was married, and had asseverated before an
admiring audience in the playing-field that she would cheerfully ignore
the wife and run away with him if he asked her. He had not asked her.
He had indeed been entirely unaware of her devotion, and had regarded
her as a rather dull pupil. Prudence had considered her silly. Also
she held a belief that emotional excitement was not love. She was not
very clear in her thoughts what the term love expressed exactly; but she
believed that when it did come love would be a big thing. She did not
consider it in relation with marriage: marriage was a contract, often a
convenience. She would have been glad herself to marry, merely to
escape from Agatha and Wortheton. When a girl was married she could at
least fashion her own life. And Prudence loved children. She envied
Bessie Clapp her coming motherhood more than she pitied her on account
of the social ostracism entailed thereby. Prudence's ideas on morality,
never having been wisely directed, inclined to exalt the beauty of
motherhood and to ignore the baser aspect of crude and illicit passions
selfishly indulged. It is not the maternal woman who brings children
into the world with a selfish disregard for the shame of their nameless
birth.
While Prudence leaned from her window and thought of love and
motherhood, she became abruptly and amazedly aware of a figure in the
road beyond the high wall--a man's figure, tall and straight in the
moonlight--walking with a purposeful air down the hill towards the town.
The man glanced up at the lighted window in which the girlish form was
brightly framed, and broke off abruptly in the middle of a bar he was
whistling softly, paused for the fraction of a second, and then went
swinging on down the hill. He was a stranger; Prudence recognised that;
there were no young men, except the factory employees and the tradesmen,
in Wortheton.
"I wonder," she murmured to herself, and leaned further out to look
after the vanishing figure, "what it feels like to be in love..."