Through the cloud that hung over the poor woman’s spirit, Master Swift’s
plain consolations made their way. The ruling thought of his mind became
the one idea to which her unhinged intellect clung,—the second coming of
the Lord. For this she watched—not merely in the sense of a readiness
for judgment, but—out of the upper windows of the windmill, from which
could be seen a vast extent of that heaven in which the sign of the Son
of Man should be, before He came.
Sky-gazing was an old habit with Jan, and his active imagination was not
slow to follow his foster-mother’s fancies. The niece did all the
house-work, for the freakish state of Mrs. Lake’s memory made her help
too uncertain to be trusted to. But, with a restlessness which was
perhaps part of her disease, she wandered from story to story of the
windmill, guided by Jan, and the windmiller made no objection.
The country folk who brought grist to the mill would strain their ears
with a sense of awe to catch Mrs. Lake’s mutterings as she glided hither
and thither with that mysterious shadow on her spirit, and the miller
himself paid a respect to her intellect now it was shattered which he had
not paid whilst it was whole. Indeed he was very kind to her, and every
Sunday he led her tenderly to church, where the music soothed her as it
soothed Saul of old. As the brain failed, she became happier, but her
sorrow was like a pain numbed by narcotics; it awoke again from time to
time. She would fancy the children were with her, and then suddenly
arouse to the fact that they were not, and moan that she had lost all.
“Thee’ve got one left, mother dear,” Jan would cry, and his caresses
comforted her. But at times she was troubled by an imperfect remembrance
of Jan’s history, and, with some echo of her old reluctance to adopt him,
she would wail that she “didn’t want a stranger child.” It cut Jan to
the heart. Ever since he had known that he was not a miller’s son, he
had protested against the knowledge. He loved the windmill and the
windmiller’s trade. He loved his foster-parents, and desired no others.
He had a miller’s thumb, and he flattened it with double pains now that
his right to it was disputed. He would press Mrs. Lake’s thin fingers
against it in proof that he belonged to her, and the simple wile was
successful, for she would smile and say, “Ay, ay, love! Thee’s a
miller’s boy, for thee’ve got the miller’s thumb.”
Two or three causes combined to strengthen Jan’s love for his home. His
revolt from the fact that he was no windmiller born gave the energy of
contradiction. Then to fulfil Abel’s behests, and to take his place in
the mill, was now Jan’s chief ambition. And whence could be seen such
glorious views as from the windows of a windmill?