Jan of the Windmill: A Story of the Plains — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Jan of the Windmill: A Story of the Plains
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The miller had made a mistake, and it was a pity that he made another on
the top of it, with the best intentions. He hurried on the funeral,
hoping that when “all was over” the mother would “settle down.”
But it was this crowning insult to her agony, the shortening of the too
brief time when she could watch by all that remained to her of her child,
which drove her completely wild. She reproached him now plainly and
bitterly enough. She would neither listen to reason nor obey; and
when—with more truth than taste—he observed that other people lost
children, and that they had plenty left, she laughed in his face that
wild laugh which drove him back to the mill and to the storm.
How it raged! The miller’s wife was an uneducated, commonplace woman
enough, but, in the excited state of her nervous system, she was as
sensible as any poet of a kind of comforting harmony in the wild sounds
without; though at another time they would have frightened her.
They did not disturb the children, who were in bed. Four in the old
press-bed in the corner, and one in a battered crib, and one in the
narrow bed over which the coverlet was not yet green.
The day’s work was over for her, though it was only just beginning for
the miller, and the mother had nothing to do but weep, and her tears fell
and fell, and the rain poured and poured. That last outburst had
somewhat relieved her, and she almost wished her husband would come back,
as a flash of lightning dazzled her eyes, and the thunder rattled round
the old mill, as if the sails had broken up again, and were falling upon
the roof of the round-house. All her senses were acute to-night, and she
listened for the miller’s footsteps, and so, listening, in the lull after
the thunder, she heard another sound. Wheels upon the road.
A pang shot through her heart. Thus had the doctor’s gig sounded the
night he came,—alas, too late! How long and how intensely she had
listened for that! She first heard it just beyond the mile-stone. This
one must be a good bit on this side of it; up the hill, in fact. She
could not help listening. It was so like, so terribly like! Now it spun
along the level ground. Ah, the doctor had not hurried so! Now it was
at the mill, at the door, and—it stopped.
The miller’s wife rose to run out, she hardly knew why. But in a moment
she checked herself, and went back to her seat.
“I be crazed, surely,” said the poor woman, sitting down again. “There
be more gigs than one in the world, and folk often stops to ask their way
of the maester.”
These travellers were a long time about the putting of such a simple
question, especially as the night was not a pleasant one to linger out
in. The murmur of voices, too, which the woman overheard, betokened a
close conversation, in which the familiar drawl of the windmiller’s
dialect blended audibly with that kind of clean-clipt speaking peculiar
to gentlefolk.