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John Marsh's Millions
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"Yes--yes--she is--she is!" he stammered. There was a short silence, and
then he said:
"Miss Marsh--I want to apologize for--for--for my--my--conduct the other
night----"
"Apologize!" she exclaimed, as if not understanding.
"Yes," he stammered. "I'm very sorry--very sorry----"
"Sorry--why, what did you do?" she demanded.
Harry looked at her in surprise.
"It isn't what I did so much," he said hesitatingly, "as what I
said--I--want--you to forgive me----"
Paula smiled.
"There's nothing to forgive, Mr. Parkes. The fact is, you won't think
I--I'm rude, will you--but--I hardly remember what happened last night.
I was very weak and foolish, and I'm afraid I gave way to--to tears. I
don't believe in tears--it seems you're sorry for yourself--and I'm not
sorry for myself--I'm angry with my relations--I'm angry because they
make me angry. I love peace and happiness and a calm, quiet life--and
they make my existence a hell on earth--with their attacks on my father
and mother and their lawsuits. My heart is always in my mouth--I'm
always afraid that something dreadful is going to happen--any moment I
may hear the Court's decision. I'm unhappy, Mr. Parkes--and I've no
right to be unhappy. I'm young and I have a happy disposition--every
capacity to enjoy my life but----" Shaking her head, she added: "But
there, I'm not going to bother you with my troubles. You're home
early----"
"You're sure that you're not angry with me?"
"Why, no--what for--whatever did you say or do?"
He hesitated and looked at her, trying to read her mind. Her
self-possession disconcerted him.
"Never mind," he said finally, "I was very foolish----"
"Were you?" she replied calmly. "I didn't notice anything out of the
ordinary."
He advanced a step nearer and his voice was agitated, as he burst out:
"You see, Miss Marsh, I----"
"Do you mind calling me Paula," she said in the most matter-of-fact
tone. "I hate the name of Marsh--it's my Uncle James' name--and it's
always on those horrid law papers--'_Marsh versus Marsh_.' It's always
connected with defendants and plaintiffs and--affidavits--and other
horrible instruments of torture. My heart beats every time I see the
dreadful words. _Marsh versus Marsh!_ I dream of _Marsh versus
Marsh_--and when I wake up in the morning--the first thing that greets
me in the morning paper is _Marsh versus Marsh_. I hate the name--I hate
it!"
Was this the opportunity? Harry did not know but he seized it.
"Why--why not change it?" he murmured.
Paula smiled.
"That idea has occurred to me dozens of times," she said gaily. "I will
when this horrible lawsuit is settled."
His companion grew a shade paler.
"Is that a--a bargain----" he asked seriously.
"Yes," she laughed.
"And may I--pick--pick out a suitable name for you----?"
"If you like," she said lightly; "any old name will
do--Smith--Jones--Billikins----"
"Even Par--Parkes?" he suggested.
"Yes--even Parkes," she laughed. "Anything but Marsh----"