She asked nothing better. She was oppressed with a sense of crisis.
An inner voice seemed to be saying, in parody of Charles Francis
Adams’s historic words: “I need hardly point out to your ladyship
that this means marriage.”
She had thought, lightly enough, that everything was settled the
evening before on the stairs when she had made up her mind that he
would do. But with all her belief in herself, she was not unaware
even then that unforeseen obstacles might arise. He might be
secretly engaged for all she knew to the contrary. But now she felt
quite sure of him. With Fate playing into her hands like this--with
romance and adventure and the possibilities of an uninterrupted
tête-à-tête, she knew she could have him if she wanted him. And the
point was that she did. At least she supposed she did. She felt as
many a young man feels when he lands his first job--triumphant, but
conscious of lost freedoms.
Marriage, she knew, was the only possible solution of her problems.
Her life with her father was barely possible. As a matter of fact
they were but rarely together. The tiny apartment in New York
did not attract Fred Fenimer as a winter residence, when he had
an opportunity of going to Aiken or Florida or California at the
expense of some more fortunate friend. In summer it was much the
same. “My dear,” he would say to his daughter, “I really can’t
afford to open the house this summer.” And Christine would coldly
acquiesce, knowing that this statement only meant that he had
received an invitation that he preferred to a quiet summer with her.
Sometimes throughout the whole season father and daughter would
only meet by chance on some unexpected visit, or coming into a
harbor on different yachts.
“Isn’t that the _Sea-Mew’s_ flag?” Christine would say languidly.
“I rather think my father is on board.”
And then, perhaps, some amiable hostess in need of an extra man
would send the launch to the _Sea-Mew_ to bring Mr. Fenimer back
to dine; and he would come on board, very civil, very neat, very
punctilious on matters of yachting etiquette; and he and Christine
having exchanged greeting, would find that they had really nothing
whatsoever to say to each other.
Their only vital topic of conversation was money, and as this was
always disagreeable, both of them instinctively tried to avoid
it. Whenever Fenimer had money, he either speculated with it, or
immediately spent it on himself. So that he was always able to say
with perfect truth, whenever his daughter asked for it, that he
had none. The result of this was that she had easily drifted into
the simple custom of running up bills for whatever she needed, and
allowing the tradesmen to fight it out with her father.