He had been at home about two weeks, when her first letter came.
So far the only scrap of her handwriting that he possessed was the
formal release that she had given him the afternoon they became
engaged, and which, for safe keeping doubtless, he always carried
in his pocketbook, and which he sometimes found himself reading
over--not as a proof that he could get out of his engagement, but
rather in an attempt to verify the fact that he had ever got into
it.
However unfamiliar with her writing, he had not the least doubt
about the letter from the first instant that he saw it. No one else
could use such absurd faint blue and white paper and such large
square envelopes. As he took it up, he said to himself that it had
never occurred to him that she would write, and yet he saw without
any sense of inconsistency that he had looked for this letter in
every mail. And yet, so perverse is the nature of mankind, that he
opened it, not with pleasure, but with a sudden return of all his
old terror of being trapped.
“Dear Max,” it said. “I have been pretending so often to
write to you for the benefit of my inquiring friends, that
I think I may as well do it as a tribute to truth.
“How foolish that was--the night you went away! One gets
carried away sometimes by the drama of a situation, without
any relation to the facts, and the idea of parting forever
from one’s fiancé is rather dramatic, isn’t it? I cried all
night, and rather enjoyed it. Then in the morning when I
woke up, everything seemed to have returned to the normal,
and I could not understand what had made me so silly.
“Don’t suppose that because you have gone, I am therefore
freed from the disagreeable criticism of which you made
such a speciality. Ned comes in almost every day to tell me
that he does not approve of my conduct. I am not behaving,
it appears, as an affianced bride should. Don’t you like
to think of Ned so loyally protecting your interests in
your absence? His criticisms are, I suppose, based on
the attentions of a nice little boy just out of college,
who calls me ‘Helen,’ and writes sonnets to me which are
to appear in the most literary of weeklies. Look out for
them. They are good, and may raise your low estimate of my
charms. The best one begins:
“When the blond wonder first on Paris dawned--
“Isn’t that pretty?
“Write to me. At least send me a blank envelope that I may
leave ostentatiously on my desk.
“Yours at the moment,
“CHRISTINE.”