Lancaster's Choice — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Lancaster's Choice
John Stuart Mill · en
"Well," confidingly, "to tell you the truth, we both did--that is,
you know, while we were laboring under the very natural mistake that
you were a very small baby instead of--a grown-up one. But all that is
altered now, of course, since I have met you, Miss West. We shall be
only too happy to have you for our _compagnon du voyage_."
He was speaking to her quite as if she were his equal, and not the
lowly born niece of the housekeeper at his ancestral home. It was
impossible to keep that fact in his head. She was so fair, so refined,
so well-bred, in spite of the little flashes of spirit indicative of a
spoiled child.
She did not answer, and he continued, pleasantly:
"I am very sorry for the mistake on my part that caused you so much
annoyance. I desire to offer you every possible apology for it."
She looked up at him quickly. "Oh, I wasn't mad because you thought
Leonora West was a baby," she said.
"Then why--because I thought you were a nurse?"
"Not that either. I was only amused at those mistakes of yours."
She paused a moment, then added, with a rising flush:
"It was for those other words you said."
"I do not blame you at all. I was a regular brute," said Lancaster,
penitently. "Do say that you forgive me, I never should have said it if
only I had known."
"Known what?" she inquired.
"That you were the baby I had to carry to England. I should have been
only too happy to be of service to you. De Vere will be distracted with
envy at my privilege. There, I have said several pretty things to you.
Will you not forgive me now?"
"Yes, I will forgive you, but you do not deserve it," answered Leonora.
"It was not kind to talk about me so, even if I had been an unconscious
baby."
"It was not," he admitted. "But think a moment, Miss West. I am a
bachelor, and I know nothing at all of babies. I have forgotten all the
experiences of my own babyhood. I was wretched at the idea of having
to convey one of those troublesome little problems across the ocean. I
would as soon have been presented with a white elephant. I should have
known quite as much of one as the other. Can you find it in your heart
to chide me for my reluctance?"
Leonora reflected, with her pretty brows drawn together.
"Well, perhaps you are right," she acknowledged, after a moment. "They
are troublesome--babies, I mean--I think you called them problems. You
were right there, too, for one does not know what to make of them, nor
what they will do next, nor what they will become in the future."
"Then you can not blame me, can not be angry with me. And you will be
ready to go with me to-morrow?"
"No, I think not. I am afraid, after all you have said, Captain
Lancaster, that you really are vexed in your mind at the thought of
taking me. I do not believe I ought to take advantage of your pretended
readiness," she replied, sensitively, and with that perfect frankness
that seemed to be one of her characteristics.
"And you refuse to go with me?" He gazed at her despairingly.