Love conquers pride; or, Where peace dwelt — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Love conquers pride; or, Where peace dwelt
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“I shall be sure to find work in a great big city like that,” she
thought, as she took her place in a car and sank wearily into a seat,
bursting into tears as the whistle blew and the train rushed out of
the station, at the thought that she was leaving behind her forever
mother, home, and native city--dear old Richmond, on its green, smiling
hills--the place where she was born, and where she had spent her
eighteen years of life.
She had never known how well she loved Richmond until she felt herself
leaving it forever behind her, with all the associations so dear to
her heart. Tears blinded her beautiful eyes, and a sort of passionate
hatred for the lover who had wrought her so much woe swelled her young
heart.
“Oh, did he think of all this when he betrayed me?” she wondered
bitterly, and a yearning for revenge came to her, a bitter longing to
pay him back in his own coin for all that she was suffering now.
“Heaven will send me the chance, and I will wring his heart as he has
tortured mine,” she vowed to herself, with eyes that flashed through
her tears, and just then the conductor came along to take up the
tickets.
The car was not crowded, and he had time to observe how Pansy’s face
was all wet with tears, and how nervously her little hand shook when
she presented her ticket.
“Are you ill, miss?” he asked politely. “Can I do anything for you?”
“No, I am not ill; there is nothing I wish, thank you,” she answered;
but, as she saw how surprised he looked, she added: “I was only crying
because I am leaving my native city forever, to go among strangers. I
am an orphan, and must seek work in the West.”
“I should think you could certainly find work in Richmond,” he said;
but she shook her head and put her hand to her white throat in such a
pathetic way that he knew she was choked with tears.
He turned away with a heart full of pity, thinking of his own pretty
daughter at home, and hoping that she might never come to this. The
next day he heard that a beautiful young working girl of Richmond had
drowned herself in the James River, and his thoughts involuntarily flew
to the one who had left Richmond last night, although he did not think
of connecting the two together, save as sisters in sorrow.
“There was a tragedy of woe in the beautiful face of that orphan girl,”
he thought often, for the memory of her grief did not fade from his
mind for some time.
Pansy was touched by his manly sympathy, but she pretended not to
notice it. She did not want him to find out who she was, or anything
about her, lest it should interfere with the success of her plan for
making everybody believe she was dead.
But, oh, that long, weary night in which she was whirled away so
rapidly from all that she had ever known--it would stay in her memory
forever, with all its pain and sadness.