Loved you better than you knew — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Loved you better than you knew
John Stuart Mill · en
She carried out her programme further by dressing the child in the
plainest, commonest clothing, and plaiting all her wealth of golden
curls in a single tail down her back, though she could not prevent it
even then from breaking out on her brow and neck in enchanting little
ringlets that a ballroom belle might have envied.
To her dearest crony Mrs. Flint excused her course by saying,
confidentially:
“Cinthy’s mother, who is dead now, was the vainest and prettiest
creature on earth, and she did wicked work with her beauty. I don’t
want to say aught against her now that she is dead; but Cinthy must
have a different raising, that’s all. My brother said so when he put
her in my charge. ‘Bring her up good and simple in your old-fashion
way, Rebecca,’ was what he said.”
“That’s right. ‘Favor is deceitful and beauty is vain, but a woman that
feareth the Lord, she shall be praised.’ That’s Cinthy’s Bible verse,
and I hope she’ll live up to it,” returned the good crony, Deacon
Rood’s wife.
So Cinthia Dawn was reared simply and plainly almost to severity. She
received her education at the public school, and at home helped her
aunt with the house-work. Surreptitiously she read poetry and novels.
Such a simple, quiet life--just like thousands and thousands of
others--but Cinthia was outgrowing it now. She was seventeen--the most
romantic age in the world--and she chafed at the dreariness of her life.
School-days were ended now, and her merry mates had their new gowns,
their dances, and their lovers. There were none of these for Cinthia
Dawn.
Mrs. Flint said her niece was nothing but a child yet, so she was not
permitted to attend parties, and she vowed she had no money to spend on
finery. As for lovers, if she had any, the bravest would not have dared
present himself at Mrs. Flint’s door. She would have said to him as to
the veriest tramp:
“Be off!”
It was just the life to drive a pretty, spirited girl frantic with
impatience of the present, and longings for something better than she
had known--the longing that found impatient expression that afternoon
when she watched the dead leaves flying in sodden drifts beneath the
chill November rain.
After Mrs. Flint’s curt rejoinder to her complaints she remained silent
several minutes drumming impatiently on the pane, then burst out:
“Oh, Aunt Beck, don’t you want me to run down to the post-office for
your _Christian Advocate_?”
“In all this storm?”
“Oh, I won’t mind it a bit! I’m in a mood for fighting the elements!”
“Then take your umbrella and overshoes, and hurry back.”
“Yes, aunt.”
Glad to escape from the monotony of the little brown house, she hurried
out into the teeth of the storm, and made her way through the village
streets to the little post-office. The rain blew in her face, and the
wind crimsoned her cheeks and made her dark eyes flash like stars.
Cinthia did not care. In her splendor of youth and health she found it
exhilarating.