Loved you better than you knew — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Loved you better than you knew
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To her surprise, she found him up and dressed, putting the finishing
touches to his toilet. The tears rushed to her eyes at the sight of his
haggard, miserable face.
“Rebecca, I was fooled last night. Arthur Varian gave me that tramp he
had picked up in the road for my own child, and I let him deceive me.
But I shall go on their tracks at once,” he said weakly.
For answer she held out the telegram.
He snatched it with a cry of anguish, and quickly mastered the contents.
His face changed marvelously, and he exclaimed hoarsely:
“Thank God!” and tossed her the telegram. She read:
“Cinthia is here safe with me, and not married. Please come at once
and take her home.
“MRS. VARIAN.”
The address was carefully given, and the man’s face, from anger and
distress, changed to keenest joy.
“This is better than I could have hoped,” he cried. “Can you give me
some breakfast at once, Rebecca, for I must leave for Washington on the
earliest train.”
CHAPTER XVII. A DEADLY FEUD.
When Cinthia recovered her senses she found herself lying on her bed
and the air was heavy with the scent of eau-de-Cologne, with which Mrs.
Varian was gently bathing her face and hands.
“Do you feel better now?” the lady gently inquired, and Cinthia
mechanically answered:
“Oh, yes.”
In fact her head was aching wretchedly, and her heart was heavy as
lead, but she would seek no sympathy from Arthur Varian’s mother, who
had turned against her so cruelly.
“I am glad to hear it. Perhaps you will feel like taking breakfast
now,” touching the bell.
“Oh, no, no, no!” cried Cinthia; feeling as if she could never swallow
a morsel of food again.
“But yes,” returned Mrs. Varian, smiling, as she rose as if to go.
Cinthia raised her heavy head and held out a deprecatory hand.
“You are going,” she said, “and it is not likely that we shall ever
meet again. Wait till I ask you one question. Why is it that you hate
me?”
“I do not hate you, child.”
“Why deny it, when I have read it in your eyes?” cried the girl,
accusingly.
Mrs. Varian’s face worked with emotion, and she started forward as
if she would have embraced the girl, then suddenly drew back, saying
huskily:
“Cinthia, you are mistaken. I--I--do not hate--_you! It was--your
mother!_”
“My mother!” the girl gasped, in bewilderment, gazing in wonder at the
beautiful and agitated face of the lady.
Mrs. Varian continued, hoarsely:
“My feelings toward you are complex, Cinthia. For your own sake, I
could love you--you are beautiful and winning, but between your parents
and me there has been a deadly feud--they both wronged me! I have hated
them both for years and years, and that hatred comes between you and
me, child, like an impassable gulf. That first night I saw you I did
not guess at your parentage, hence my attraction to you. When I learned
the truth upon the return of your father, my feelings changed. I do not
deny it. I could not contemplate with any calmness the thought of a
marriage between you and Arthur.