Loved you better than you knew — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Loved you better than you knew
John Stuart Mill · en
And the actress had answered as ardently:
“And I you, my dear. I wish you were my daughter.”
The words put a new thought in Cinthia’s head.
Why couldn’t clear, beautiful Madame Ray become her mamma?
What was to hinder her father falling in love with the charming woman,
and making her Mrs. Dawn, and thereby her step-mamma?
Cinthia felt sure that she could love her as dearly as her own
mamma--much more dearly, in fact, than she did her father.
For, though she saw a hundred admirable things about him, and felt
rather proud of him than otherwise, Cinthia had never tried to overcome
her resentment of the past for those years of neglect, and the cruel
parting from her lover. She believed that Mr. Dawn and Mrs. Varian had
acted a wicked part in preventing her marriage, because of some old
family feud that would have been healed by her union with Arthur.
So she still preserved toward her father a certain amount of reserve,
like a thin crust of ice, and he, on his part, although admiring her
grace and beauty, and sedulously careful and attentive to all her
whims, still brooded over secret sorrows that made him half oblivious
to the present with the best of his heart buried in the dead past.
To Cinthia there came the sudden thought that to make a match between
this strange father of hers and lovely Madame Ray might be conducive
to the happiness of all three. Of herself she was sure that life would
be far brighter with this fair woman for a companion than spent alone
with Everard Dawn, who would always represent to her the blighting of
the fairest love-dream maiden ever cherished.
She became the most designing little match-maker in the world, but she
was so transparent that she could not hide her plans from the objects
of her care.
They detected her schemes with secret amusement, and pretended
unconsciousness, while inwardly rather amused at the little by-play.
That each admired the other was natural, but it was not the admiration
that deepens into love. Both had been deeply bereaved in a way that
left no room for the budding of a second passion.
As for Cinthia, those years abroad had been like the bursting of a
promising bud into a perfect flower.
In a few months she would be twenty years old, and the promise of
seventeen was more than fulfilled.
Her slight figure was somewhat taller and more rounded in its gracious
contour, and her lovely face and large, soft, dark eyes had gained a
depth of expression--spirit blended with pathos--almost irresistible.
The gold of her luxurious, curling hair had a deeper, richer sheen as
it rippled in a loose knot beneath the brim of her becoming little hat,
a Parisian affair that matched her stylish traveling gown, for Cinthia
had developed a perfect taste in dress that was very gratifying to her
father’s pride.