Meleager : $b A fantasy — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Meleager : $b A fantasy
John Stuart Mill · en
Before attempting to give a short and, I hope, a tolerably coherent
account of my lengthy nocturnal interview with Arrigo d'Aragno, of
his amazing statements and proposals, and of my own half-hearted and
intermittent struggles against his invading powers of persuasion, I
must state first of all that the whole incident rises before me at this
moment with crystal clearness. Even now, in these exotic surroundings,
I can see with my mind's eye that commonplace hotel parlour with its
ugly luxurious furniture and its flamboyant wall-paper of scarlet
patterned with a design of raised and gilded vine-leaves. In this
room for several hours my host continued to address me with scarcely
a pause, except at one or two points when I feebly ventured to stem
the torrent of his extraordinary discourse. The open allurements, the
veiled warnings, the cynical wisdom, the biting indictments of our own
existing conditions of society, together composed a strange medley of
arguments, which were intended to convince me of the absolute necessity
of my immediate and unconditional submission to his carefully prepared
scheme. And this scheme was no less than the complete surrender of
myself, mind and body, into his keeping for the purpose of being
transported whilst in an unconscious or comatose state and by some
hidden means to another planet! I cannot of course recall the whole of
that prodigal information, nor all the astonishing things he confided
in me; but I do remember vividly throughout the whole of this mental
ordeal that I always remained fully aware of my host's sanity. He
talked the dreams of madmen, as judged by our conventional standards
of science and belief; yet I knew, instinctively knew, all his
bizarre statements to be fact and not fiction. Was some irresistible
hypnotic force, I wonder, emanating from that will and besieging my
own overwrought brain, to compel my full credence in the apparently
incredible? In any case, believe I did absolutely. I grew to realise
also, dimly at first, but with increasing clarity, that a refusal on my
part was now practically unthinkable. Of a truth my choice lay between
a swift and certain death on Earth and a new career in another planet;
and as the ties that bound me to Earth were neither very strong nor
very dear, whilst my curiosity was boundless, I was filled with tense
excitement but not with real alarm at the prospect opened before me.
With hardly an attempt at opposition, therefore, I allowed myself to
become permeated through and through with the psychical current of my
companion's will to power, ignoring my shrewd presentiment of intense
danger ahead in the event of my seeking to decline that which I most
ardently longed for despite a few passing qualms. Beyond a doubt I was
completely in the toils, but I experienced no anxiety to escape thence.
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