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Millbank; $b or, Roger Irving's ward. A novel
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“Thank Heaven!” dropped from Roger’s quivering lips, as the suspected
evil which, as he grew older, he began to fear and shrink from, was thus
swept away.
He had no doubts, no misgivings now, and his tears fell like rain upon
poor Jessie’s letter, which he kissed again and again, just as he would
have kissed the dear face of the writer had it been there beside him.
“Mother, mother!” he sobbed, “I believe you; oh, mother, if you could
have lived!”
Then he went back to the letter, the whole of which it is not our design
to give at present. It embraced the history of Jessie’s life from the
days of her early girlhood up to that night when she left her husband’s
home, and closed with the words:
“I do not ask you to take me back. I know that can never be; but I want
you to think as kindly of me as you can, and when you feel that you have
fully forgiven me, show this letter to Roger, if he is old enough to
understand it. Tell him to forgive me, and give him this lock of his
mother’s hair. Heaven bless and keep my little boy, and grant that he
may be a comfort to you and grow up a good and noble man.”
The lock of hair, which was enclosed in a separate bit of paper, had
dropped upon the carpet, where Roger found it, his heart swelling in his
throat as he opened the paper and held upon his finger the coil of
golden hair. It was very long, and curled still with a persistency which
Mrs. Walter Scott, with all her papers, could never hope to attain; but
the softness and brightness were gone, and it clung to Roger’s finger, a
streaked, faded tress, but inexpressibly dear to him for the sake of her
who sued so piteously for his own and his father’s forgiveness.
“When you feel that you have fully forgiven me, show this letter to
Roger, if he is old enough to understand it.”
Roger read this sentence over again, and drew therefrom this inference.
The letter had never been shown to him, therefore the writer had not
been forgiven by the dead man, whose face, even in the coffin, wore the
stern, inflexible look which Roger always remembered to have seen upon
it. ‘Squire Irving had been very reserved, and very unforgiving too. He
could not easily forget an injury to himself, and that he had not
forgiven Jessie’s sin was proved by the fact that he had never given the
letter to his son, who, for a moment, felt himself growing hard and
indignant toward one who could hold out against the sweet, piteous
pleadings in that letter from poor, unfortunate Jessie.
“But I forgive you, mother; I believe you innocent. I bless and revere
your memory, my poor, poor, lost mother!” Roger sobbed, as he kissed the
faded curl and kissed the sea-stained letter.