The rain came presently with all the violence usual to a
thunder-shower. We were prisoners in Mrs. Thatcher's cottage for more
than an hour; a happy hour, I think, to Milly, in spite of the
closeness of the atmosphere and the medical odour of the herbs. Angus
Egerton stood beside her chair all the time, looking down at her bright
face and talking to her; while Mrs. Thatcher mumbled a long catalogue
of her ailments and troubles into my somewhat inattentive ear.
Once while those two were talking about his intended departure I heard
Mr. Egerton say,
'If I thought any one cared about my staying--if I could believe that
any one would miss me ever so little--I should be in no hurry to leave
Yorkshire.'
Of course Milly told him that there were many people who would miss
him--Mr. Collingwood for instance, and all the family at the Rectory.
He bent over her, and said something in a very low voice--something
that brought vivid blushes to her face; and a few minutes afterwards
they went to the door to look at the weather, and stood there talking
till I had heard the last of Mrs. Thatcher's woes, and was free to join
them. I had never seen Milly look so lovely as she did just then, with
her downcast eyes, and a little tremulous smile upon her perfect mouth.
Mr. Egerton walked all the way home with us. The storm was quite over,
the sun shining, and the air full of that cool freshness which comes
after rain. We talked of all kinds of things. Mr. Egerton had almost
made up his mind to spend the autumn at Cumber, he told us; and he
would go to the Pensildon fête, and take Milly's side in the
croquet-match. He seemed in almost boyish spirits during that homeward
walk.
When we went up-stairs to our rooms that night, Milly followed me into
mine. There was nothing new in this; we often wasted half an hour in
happy idle talk before going to bed; but I was sure from my darling's
manner she had something to tell me. She went over to an open window,
and stood there with her face turned away from me, looking out across
the distant moonlit sea.
'Mary,' she said, after a very long pause, 'do you think people are
intended to be quite happy in this world?'
'My dear love, how can I answer such a question as that? I think that
many people have their lives in their own hands, and that it rests with
themselves to find happiness. And there are many natures that are
elevated and purified by sorrow. I cannot tell what is best for us,
dear. I cannot pretend to guess what this life was meant to be.'
'There is something in perfect happiness that frightens one, Mary. It
seems as if it could not last. If it could, if I dared believe in it, I
should think that my life was going to be quite happy.'
'Why should it be otherwise, my dear Milly? I don't think you have ever
known much sorrow.'