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It was in a strange handwriting, and she felt curious as to its
contents. "Who can this be from?" she repeated.
"I don't know, and don't care, much," returned her husband, testily. "I
felt so sure of hearing from one of the passengers that sailed in the
vessel with our darling, and, as that has not come, I don't care for
anything else."
He took the letter from his wife's hand, however, as he spoke, and
turned it over leisurely. "I must have seen this handwriting before,
somewhere," he said; "it seems strangely familiar to me." And with a
little more interest, he proceeded to break the seal.
"Who is it from?" asked the lady impatiently, when he was about half
through the letter.
"Well, this is strange!" remarked the major, without noticing his
wife's question. "I never expected to hear from him again."
"Who is your correspondent?" asked the lady again.
"A cousin, my dear," replied her husband, going on with his perusal of
the letter.
When he had finished, he laid it upon the table near his wife's elbow.
"You will not understand it, my dear, without some explanation," he
said, "for you have never heard me speak of Mr. Mansfield."
"Mr. Mansfield!" repeated the lady. "Was not that the name of your
uncle—the one you lived with when a boy?"
"Yes, my dear, and this letter is from his only son."
"I did not know he had a son," said the lady.
"Perhaps not," remarked her husband meditatively.
He was thinking of the last time he had seen his cousin—of that
terrible parting, when he had provoked the hot temper of Frank
Mansfield beyond endurance, and had by him been struck to the earth.
He knew he had not been blameless in that quarrel himself, although he
had often tried to believe that he was. He might have done so still;
but the humble, penitent tone of his cousin's letter touched him more
deeply than he cared to own, even to himself.
"And this cousin has written to you after all these years?" said the
lady, finding her husband did not say any more.
"Yes, my dear."
And as he spoke, Major Ferrers took up the letter again and passed into
his room, locking the door after him. He wanted to be alone, to think
over the strange circumstance of his cousin writing to him—his proud,
imperious cousin writing such a gentle, regretful letter. He read it
over again, and as he read, a strange yearning to visit his native land
came over him.
He had never been to England since he left it, years before, and he
had resisted all his wife's importunities to return there. But now, as
he sat in the little dim hot room—dim because of the noonday sun that
must be so jealously excluded—a tide of recollections rushed to his
memory. He thought of the pleasant breezes and cool green lanes of Old
England, and pictured the springing corn and flowering hedgerows, until
the longing to see them once more grew almost painful in its intensity.
After an hour spent over his cousin's letter, and the emotions and
recollections it had awakened, he returned to his wife.