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Milly's errand : $b or, Saved to save
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"Would you miss me very much, Milly?" said the doctor, gently stroking
the fair curls.
"Miss you! O, I don't think I could ever love my own papa and mamma if
you did not love me still."
And as the doctor sat down in the summer-house, Milly threw her arms
about his neck, and kissed him fondly.
Meanwhile Major Ferrers had gone in to tell his wife the result.
"I think we shall bring the doctor round," he said, gleefully rubbing
his hands as he told her what had passed in the garden.
"I don't think there's so much to be glad about," said the lady, a
little discontentedly. "In fact, I thought at first that such a plan
would not do at all."
"Why not?" asked her husband, in some surprise.
"Well, you see, I thought it was very possible, that if he was so fond
of Milly, he would be jealous of our claims upon her, and that would
make it very disagreeable if we were living together; for, of course,
I should expect the first place in my child's affections. But he has
certainly acted very sensibly, I must say, and therefore I can have no
objection to his coming to live with us, if you and Milly wish it."
What it had cost the doctor to act "sensibly," as Mrs. Ferrers called
it, she did not know. Many a hard battle had to be fought with himself
over this first place in Milly's affections, that her mother talked of
as her right; but the victory had been gained, and brought with it its
own reward.
No thought of first or second place in her love troubled him now, as he
sat in the summer-house, holding her on his knee, glad that he should
not be separated from her—that he should still be able to watch over
her. This thought filled his heart, and Milly was not less happy than
the doctor.
"I don't think I'm afraid now," she said, after a lengthened pause,
gently stroking the doctor's face.
"Afraid of what, Milly?" asked the doctor.
"Don't you remember I was afraid you would love papa most a little
while ago?" she said.
He smiled at the thought of such a thing. "Then you are not afraid of
it now?" he asked.
"No, not a bit. I think God has made us all love one another; only—"
(she added in a whisper) "I can't love mamma quite enough yet; but I
dare say that will come by and by, and I dare say I shall soon love her
almost as well I do you and papa."
"Yes, Milly, you must try and love your mamma," said the doctor; "she
will be grieved if her little girl does not love her."
It was a surprise to the doctor himself that he could talk to the
little girl in this way, but somehow the jealousy had all gone out of
his heart, and it was almost with the gladness of a little child that
he could look forward to going once more into the world.
A few months afterwards, Major Ferrers, with his wife, and Milly, and
Dr. Mansfield, removed to London. An arrangement had been made that
part of the year should be spent there, and part at the doctor's old
house.