"But," and Esther raised her eyes to that bronzed face, every lineament
of which now worked with a look of indescribable scorn,--"you have
genius,--the loftiest! you tower above the mass of men. You have
influence,--an influence rarely given to any one man; it spans the
continent; why not use your genius and influence to make men better?"
There was something in her tone, which struck the heart of Godlike.
The expression of intense scorn was succeeded by a look of sadness as
intense. His brows rose, and his eyes looked forth, large, clear and
dreamy. It was as though that dark countenance, seamed by the wrinkles
of long years of sin, had been, for an instant, baptized with the hope
and freshness of youth.
"That was long ago; long ago; the dream of making men better. I felt it
once,--tried to carry it into deeds. But the dream has long since past.
I awakened from it many years ago. You see it is very pleasant to
believe in the innate goodness of human nature, but attempt to carry it
into action, and hark! do you not hear them, the very people, to whom
yesterday you sacrificed your soul; hark! '_crucify him! crucify him!_'"
He rose from the sofa, and the mirror reflected his majestic form, clad
in the attire of Roderick Borgia, and his dark visage, stamped with
genius on the giant forehead, and burning with the light of a giant
soul in the lurid eyes. He was strangely agitated. His chest heaved
beneath his masker's attire. There was an absent, dreamy look in his
upraised eyes.
"I used to think of it, and dream over it, in my college days,--of
that history in which 'Hosanna!' is shouted to-day, and palm branches
strewn; and to-morrow,--the hall of Pilate, the crown of thorns, the
march up Calvary, and the felon's cross! I used, I say, to think and
dream over it in my college days. As I looked around the world and
surveyed history, and found the same story everywhere: found that for
bold imposture and giant humbug, in every age, the world had riches,
honor, fame, while in return, for any attempt to make it better, it had
the cry, 'crucify! crucify!' it had the scourge, the crown of thorns,
and the felon's cross."
His voice swelled bold and deep through the silent room; as he uttered
the last word, he raised his hand to his eyes, and for a moment was
buried in the depth of his emotions. Esther, raising her eyes, regarded
with looks of mingled admiration and awe, that forehead, upon which
the veins stood forth bold and swollen,--the handwriting of the inward
thought.