New York: Its Upper Ten and Lower Million — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
New York: Its Upper Ten and Lower Million
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The entirely malignant look, which accompanied these words, convinced
me of their sincerity. For a moment I felt as though an awful weight
had crushed my brain, and by a glance at the mirror, I saw I was
frightfully pale; but recovering myself by a strong exertion of will, I
answered him in these words:
"Gentlemen, who allow themselves more than one wife at a time, are
sometimes (owing to an unfortunate prejudice of society) invited to
occupy an apartment in the state prison."
"And so you think you hold a rod over my head?"--he drank his
wine--"but I have only one wife, Frank. The gentleman, who married
you and me, was neither clergyman nor officer of the law, but simply
a convenient friend. Our mock marriage was not even published in the
papers."
Every word went like an ice-bolt to my heart. I could not speak. Then,
as his eyes glared with a mingled look of hatred and of brutal passion,
he sipped his wine as he surveyed me, and continued:
"You used the word 'bought' some time ago. You were right. 'Bought' is
the word. You are simply my _purchase_. In Constantinople these things
are easily managed; they keep an open market of fine girls there; but
here we must find an affable mother, and pay a huge price--sometimes
even marry the dear angels. I met your mother in Paris some years ago,
and have been intimately acquainted with her ever since. When she first
spoke of you, you were a child and I was weary of the world--jaded,
sick of its pleasures, by which I mean its women. An idea struck me!
What if this pretty little child, now being educated in innocence and
pious ways, and so forth, should, in the full blossom of her beauty
and piety--say at the ripe age of sixteen--become the consoler of
my declining years? And so I paid the expenses of your education
(your father consenting that I should _adopt_ you, but very possibly
understanding the whole matter as well as your mother), and you were
accordingly _educated_ for me. And when I first saw you, three months
ago, it was your very innocence and pious way of talking which gave an
irresistible effect to your beauty, and made me mad to possess you at
all hazards."
It is impossible to depict the bitter mocking tone in which these words
were spoken.
"I settled this mansion, the furniture, and so forth upon your mother,
with ten thousand dollars. That was the price. You see how much you
have cost me, my dear."
"But I will leave your accursed mansion." I felt, as I spoke, as though
my heart was dead in my bosom. "I am not chained to you in marriage; I
am, at least, free." I started to my feet and moved a step toward the
door.
"But where will you go? back to your elderly clerical friend, with
every finger leveled at you and every voice whispering 'There goes the
mistress of the rich Englishman!' Back to your village lover to palm
yourself upon him as a pure and spotless maiden?"
I sank into a chair and covered my face with my hands.