Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
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The large barn-like restaurant was empty save for a group of people at
the far end, forgotten again and again as she sat too happy to swoop the
immense distance between herself and anything but the warm brownness of
the interior and its strange quality, its intensity of welcoming
shelter—sharp contrast with the bleak surrounding snow. Switzerland was
here, already surrounding and protecting with an easy practised hand.
And there was a generous savouriness.... She could not recall any
lunching on an English journey affording this careless completeness of
comfort.
Incompletely sharing these appreciations her tired and fevered body
cowered within the folds of the beneficent fur-coat seeking a somnolence
that refused to possess it. Fever kept her mind alert, but circling at a
great pace round and round amidst reiterated assertions. Turn and turn
about they presented themselves, were flung aside in favour of what
waited beyond, and again thrust themselves forward, as if determined, so
emphatic they were, not only to share but to steer her adventure. And
away behind them, standing still and now forever accessible, were the
worlds she had passed through since the sleet drove in her face at
Newhaven. And ahead unknown Oberland, summoning her up amongst its
peaks.
And hovering vehement above them all hung the cloud of her pity for
those who had never bathed in strangeness—and its dark lining, the
selfish congratulation that reminded her how at the beginning of her
life, in the face of obstructions, she had so bathed and now under
kindly compulsion was again bathing. And again alone. Loneliness, that
had long gone from her life, had come back for this sudden voyaging to
be her best companion, to shelter strangeness that can be known only in
solitude.