Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
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At a tremendous pace they jingled along a narrow street of shops and
châlets. The street presently opened to a circle about the little church
and narrowed again and ended, showing beyond, as the sleigh pulled up at
the steps of a portico, rising ground and the beginning of pinewoods.
CHAPTER II
She followed the little servant, who had darted forth to seize her
baggage, into a small lounge whose baking warmth recalled the worst of
the train journey; seeming—though, since still one breathed, air was
there—like an over-heated vacuum.
The brisk little maid, untroubled, was already at the top of a short
flight of wide red-carpeted stairs, and making impatient rallying
sounds—like one recalling a straying dog. Miriam went gladly to the
promise of the upper air. But in going upwards there was no relief.
Glancing, as she passed at the turn of the stairs a figure standing in a
darkness made by the twilight in the angle of the wall, she found the
proprietress receiving her; a thick rigid figure in a clumsy black
dress, silent, and with deep-set glinting eyes hostile and suspicious
stirring a memory of other eyes gazing out like this upon the world, of
peasant women at cottage doors in German villages, peering out with evil
eyes, but from worn and kindly faces. There was nothing kindly about
this woman, and her commonness was almost startling, dreary and meagre
and seeming to be of the spirit.
She blamed for the unmitigated impression the fatigue she was silently
pleading whilst she searched for the mislaid German phrases in which to
explain that she had chosen the cheaper room. She found only the woman’s
name: Knigge. This was Frau Knigge, at once seeming more human, and
obviously waiting for her to speak.
Suddenly, and still unbending from her rigid pose, she made statements
in slow rasping English and a flat voice, that came unwillingly and told
of vanished interest in life. Life, as she spoke, looked terrible that
could make a being so crafty and so cold, that could show to anyone on
earth as it showed to this woman.
Admitting her identity, seeing herself as she was being seen, Miriam
begged for her room, hurrying through her words to hide the thoughts
that still they seemed to reveal, and that were changing, as she heard
the sound of her own voice, dreadfully, not to consideration for one
whose lot had perhaps been too hard to bear, but to a sudden resentment
of parleying, in her character as Roman citizen, with this peasant whose
remoteness of being was so embarrassing her.