Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
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In the midst of a stifled yawn the call to a fortnight’s continuous
urbanity fell upon her like a whip. Dodging the blow she lolled
resistant to the sound of bland voices. An onlooker, appreciative but
resistant; that, socially, would be the story of her stay. A docile
excursion, even if they should offer it, into this select little world,
would come between her and her Switzerland. Refusal clamoured within her
and it was only as an after-thought that she realised the impossibility
of remaining for a fortnight without opinions.
The next moment, hearing again the interwoven voices as a far-off unison
of people sailing secure on smooth accustomed waters, she was bleakly
lonely; suppliant. Nothing showed ahead but a return with her fatigue to
sustain the silence and emptiness of a strange room. She was turning to
glance at the woman on her left when the deep bass voice asked her
casually if she had had a good journey. Casual cameraderie, as if
already they had been talking and were now hiding an established
relationship under conventionalities.
The moment she had answered she heard the university voice across the
way remark, in the tone of one exchanging notes with a friend after a
day’s absence, that it was a vile journey, but all right from Berne
onwards, and looked up. There he was, almost opposite, Cambridge, and
either history or classics, the pleasant radiance of _lit. hum._ all
about him, and turned her way bent a little, as if bowing, and as if
waiting for her acknowledgment—with his smile, apology introduction and
greeting beaming together from sea-blue eyes set only ever so little too
closely together in a neatly tanned narrowly oval face—before regaining
the upright.
Her soft reply, lost in other sounds, made a long moment during which,
undisturbed by not hearing, he held his attitude of listening that told
her he was glad of her presence.
The close-set eyes meant neither weakness nor deceit. Sectarian eyes,
emancipated. But his strength was borrowed. His mental strength was not
original. An uninteresting mind; also he was a little selfish, with the
selfishness of the bachelor of thirty—but charming.
The party was smaller than she had thought. The odd way they were all
drawn up at one end of the table made them look numerous. Spread out in
the English way they would have made a solemn dinner-party, with large
cold gaps.
Someone asked whether she had come right through and in a moment they
were all amiably wrangling over the pros and cons of breaking the
journey.