Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
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When she was clear of the shop and crossing the road with the toboggan
slithering meekly behind, the invisible distant slopes seemed lonely and
her plan for getting immediately away to them postponed itself in favour
of enjoying for a while the thrilled equilibrium with everything about
her that was the gift of the slight pull on the cord she was trying to
hold with an air of preoccupied negligence. Turning leisurely back from
the short length of street ahead that too soon would show the open
country, she came once more into the heart of the village and paid an
unnecessary visit to the post-office, heard the toboggan pull up against
the kerb and knew as she turned to abandon the cord that she had tasted
the utmost of this new joy, and that when once more the cord was in her
hands she must go forth and venture.
Out on the road beyond the village the pleasant even slithering
alternated with little silent weightless runs, that at first made her
glance back to see if the toboggan were still there. These little runs,
increasing as the road began to slope came like reminders of its
character, assertions of its small willingness for its task, enhancing
its charm, calling her to turn and survey as she went its entrancing
behaviour of a little toboggan.
But presently, and as if grown weary of gentle hints and feeling the
necessity of stating more forcibly the meaning of its presence out here
in the glittering stillness, it took a sudden run at her heels. Moving
sideways ahead she reduced it to its proper place in the procession
until the distance between them set it once more in motion. Overtaking
her it made a half turn, slid a little way broadside and pulled up,
facing her, in a small hollow, indignant. In the mercifully empty yet
not altogether unobservant landscape it assumed the proportions of a
living thing and seemed to say as she approached: “You _can’t_ bring me
out here and make a fool of me.” And indeed, even with no one in sight,
she could not allow herself to walk down the slope with the toboggan
ahead and pulling like a dog.
She might go back, make a détour on the level round about the village,
turn the afternoon into a walk and postpone until to-morrow the
adventure for which now she had neither courage nor desire. In choosing
the time when there would be fewest people abroad she had forgotten that
it was also the lowest point of the day. Even this first day had a
lowest point. And belated prudence, reminding her that she had come away
to rest, cast a chill over the empty landscape, changing it from reality
to a picture of a reality seen long ago. At the sight of it she turned
and went a few paces up the gradient and perched and gathered up the
length of cord, and life came back into the wastes of snow, the
mountains were real again, quiet in the motionless afternoon light, and
the absurd little toboggan a foe about to be vanquished.